Human-alien encounters -- Fiction; Psychological fiction; Science fiction; Short stories; War stories
They were clever with pain, he thought. Pain, he had realized during
those first days, was a monumental thing to a man. Pain was the first
sensation experienced by a man: the slap of the doctor's hand and the
first breath of air in lungs unaccustomed to breathing. And pain was
the very last sensation that a man experienced: the pain of death.
Crowded in between those two sensations that represented a person's
life span, pain was the dominant impetus. What drove a man to do
anything except the impetus of pain and the instinct to avoid pain? A
man did a million things to avoid physical pain. To avoid hunger pains,
a man would eat; to avoid the pain of coldness, a man would light a
fire; to avoid aching muscles, a man would make a wheel to carry his
burden; to lessen that burden, a man would split an atom.... And a man
did a million other things to avoid emotional pain. To avoid the pain
of loneliness, a man would make friends; to avoid the pain of boredom,
a man would play a game; to avoid the pain of ugliness, a man would
create beauty....
Not an unpleasant reality, he realized. Not unpleasant because it was
necessary. Nothing in the universe moved unless a force pushed or
pulled it. A man unable to sense physical or emotional pain would do
_nothing_. There would be nothing to push him. As wind moved clouds,
pain moved man.
The sight of his body was not exactly painful to him. They had not
disfigured him; they had only _changed_ him. To disassociate him from
his body, no doubt. What they had done to him many would call an
"atrocity," he realized. But, in a war, every time one soldier killed
another, it was an "atrocity"--one man had taken the life of another.
_They_ had a job to do and they were doing it.
Successfully, he knew. When they came the next time, he would tell them
what they wanted to know. _Want to know where Fort Meade is located on
Earth? Give me a map and I'll show you. How many soldiers do we have
in the mountain range a hundred miles from here? I'll give you my best
estimate. I'll tell you anything you want!_
Pain was the impetus to push a man, he knew. They had pushed him and
pushed him. Doing their job. And they had pushed him far enough. A man
was not linked to other men and his nation and his world by tangible
threads. A man was separate and distinct; a man's body was a world in
itself. He had been pushed into his world by pain. Somewhere--beyond
the wall of pain that came or vanished when they wanted--somewhere, he
had friends, an army, a world called Earth. But they didn't matter.
_His_ world mattered....
And, oddly, he wasn't afraid of pain any more. It was just a thing, a
thing to be avoided in any way. And he wasn't to be pitied. They had
_changed_ him. Sergeant Chester Gregg wasn't a man any more. He was
something that could be added to and subtracted from, a pliable thing
that could be prodded and molded, an object that could be pushed this
way and that way....
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