After a while the rush-rushing of the train, the sense of traveling,
blurred out the past for her. She was journeying to the life that was
hers by right; the luxurious appointments of the car, her own new
elegance, began to seem a part of her, wonted necessaries to which,
indeed, she had been born. It was a buffet-car, and she took the card
offered her by the white-aproned colored waiter and selected her dinner
as she saw others doing. He was so long in bringing it that she thought
he had forgotten it; but at last he brought the meal, and she ate it
from the table which he had obseqiously fastened up in front of her;
there was an exhilaration in the performance of this very simple act
which made several people look at her with a smiling indulgence.
Afterwards she put her gray felt hat in the rack, and took off her
jacket, and made herself comfortable, as she saw others had done. The
car was by no means crowded, and she had seen from the first that there
was no one who could serve as a peg to hang a romance on—only
middle-aged women and men, and a mother with half-grown children. She
fell to wondering, as she had done many times before, what her cousins
would be like; she was prepared to love them dearly. With the
unconscious egotism of her age, everything in this new life was to
revolve around her. The other players were accessories—she was the star
performer.
The afternoon whirled away amid patches of light and dark, of green and
shadow, red clay and somber pine, scattered white houses and rounded
overhanging slopes that shut out the day. Dosia looked, and dreamed—and
dreamed. Then night closed her into the train, with its crimson plush
and gleaming woods and lights, and strange faces, and impalpable
cinders, and that rush-rushing still. Then the berths were made up,
people sitting the while in tired, silent groups in other sections,
holding on to cloaks and hand-bags, before disappearing singly behind
the curtains. Dosia crept under hers. She had first tried to braid the
brown hair that would curl itself out of the plaits, and then lay down
at last without removing any clothing, with both hands tucked under her
soft cheek and her eyes staring before her. There had been a bustle of
walking to and fro before the berths were made ready, but after a while
all was still behind the long curtains, that waved outward a little when
the train went suddenly around a curve. Gradually those wide-open blue
eyes began to close; she seemed to be floating in a blissful dream on
pillows of roseate down, between waking and sleeping; and then—_God in
heaven_! A crash as of a breaking world, an awful, blinding, helpless
terror! A giant force had her by the throat, clutching her, beating her
against the planks, jamming her into awful darkness as if she were a
creature without bone or sinew, while her shrieking voice lost itself
among the other voices shrieking. A plunge, and then—nothing.
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