Lois Alexander, who had a household to look after, servants to keep in
order, children to be attended to, who was subject to the claims of
social functions, clubs, friends, and affairs generally, was through
everything absorbed in her husband to a degree incredible to anyone but
a woman. His attitude toward her had come to occupy the substrata of her
thoughts morning, noon, and night. To have him leave with a shade less
of affection for her in the morning farewell left her with a sick
feeling throughout the day; everything done in those next hours was
merely to fill up the time until his return, that she might see then if
her exacting soul might be satisfied. Sometimes she reproached him
tearfully before he left, and then it was not only with a sick feeling
that she spent the day, but with an absolutely intolerant pain, because
she must wait until night to set herself right with him again. At those
times she could not derive any satisfaction even from her children—her
only refuge from weeping herself into a sick-headache was to go to town
and shop exhaustingly. One cannot well shed tears in the crowded
streets, or before a clerk who is showing one goods over a counter. But
when she went shopping too many days in succession the children showed
the effects of it in the lawlessness which creeps in in a mother’s
absence.
She could not understand why the morning reproach and the evening
retraction had grown alike unimportant to her husband; after the first
surprise and solicitude occasioned by this recurrent state, he had grown
to regard it as something to be borne with like any other normal
annoyance,—like fog, rain, or mosquitoes,—that measurably lessened the
joy of the day, but upon which no action of his had any bearing. A man
must have patience with his wife’s complainings, and try always to
remember the delicacy of her bodily strength and the many calls upon it,
which made little things a grievance to her. He himself never
complained; complaint was in itself distasteful to him.
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