Lois, left in charge of a measles-stricken household, had plenty to keep
her hands busy, and yet, as there was no particular anxiety attaching to
the disease, plenty of time for meditation. She possessed the
unfortunate quality of being able to keep up two lines of thought at the
same time, so that little occupations really occupied only a small
corner of her mind, and the larger part was continually taken up with
the subject of larger interest—herself. While she rocked the children
and sang to them, and cut out pictures, and prepared their meals, and
took care of them all day with the aid of a young nurse-maid, she was
unceasingly traversing a country wherein she walked alone and in exile.
The quarantine had shut her in more rigorously upon herself; there were
now no distractions. Her husband was more anxious about the children
than she was, and seriously distressed at first that so much was thrown
upon her; he had wanted to get a trained nurse at once, but after her
assurances that she did not mind staying in, that her exertions did not
tire her, and that she much preferred matters as they were, he accepted
this version without further question or comment, and went about his
affairs, satisfied that she knew best in this her own department. It is
a well-known fact that quarantine, the observance of which is exacted
down to the last second of its limit from the women of a household, does
not affect the bread winner of it, who goes and comes immune; Justin
thought it his duty, in view of this fact, to be as careful as possible
about being much with the children. He stood obediently outside of the
nursery door and talked to them from there when Lois said, “You had
better not come in.” When she refused a service offered by him, he did
not press it again. He frequently stayed late at the office, and got his
dinner in town, or, if he did come home, he went out again to spend the
long evenings, in which she had to be up-stairs, at houses where there
were no children to be kept from contagion, and where he could talk to
men. He was really so busy that, though he was ready to help his wife in
any way that she would indicate, it was an immense relief to be able to
leave the conduct of affairs to her. There was, besides, a curious
hardness of manner in her which he unconsciously resented—she seemed to
hold herself aloof from him, and there was no allurement to follow. That
temporary indifference which those who love allow themselves sometimes,
with the clear knowledge that it is only indifference because they do
allow it, to be merged into dearest companionship at will—this had been
pushed too far. It is a dangerous thing to let love slip away, even for
the pleasure of regaining it.
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