affection, however great on the part of her husband, would have meant
anything to her more than momentarily, for it was seen afterwards
through a medium which at once distorted and nullified, and not even the
complete absorption in and surrender to herself that she craved could
have satisfied the insatiable. She was drifting to a place among the
great and terrible company of nerve-centered people, revolving wheels of
centripetal force, sweeping into their own restless orbit all with which
they come in contact as they go on their devastating way through the
universe.
Dosia, on the night when she had hurried down to the house with Lawson
Barr, had found nothing out of the ordinary; the doctor had been delayed
until late by a case of more insistence, that was all. She came down,
however, on other evenings, luxuriously cloaked and wrapped, rosy and
smiling, with radiant eyes, and held rapid conversations with Lois
down-stairs, while Lawson waited in the hall, or sometimes went on
farther and came back for her. Lois herself had never considered Lawson
of importance, although she had warned Dosia against him; his
sympathetic manner now pleased her. As the children improved, the
measles threatened to become at once epidemic and more virulent in the
town, so that it was thought wise to avoid comment by having no
communication by daylight with the Alexander household. Dosia was thus,
for a few minutes at a time, Lois’ one social link with the outside
world, for Justin, as she said bitterly, told her nothing. After three
weeks of solitude and self-communing the barriers began to give way.
She was glad to hear her husband come in one afternoon much earlier than
usual. Something had been said the day before about her going out for a
drive. Her heart beat at the sound of his voice, and she ran down-stairs
eagerly, but checked herself, as she had a way of doing lately, when she
came near him. Her face, devoid of expression, was lifted to his to be
kissed; for all her forbidding manner, she was ready to thaw if he would
only take the trouble to shine directly upon her. It was a beautiful
spring afternoon, and she felt the invading monitions of happiness, in
spite of herself, as he kissed her, saying at once hurriedly, if very
kindly:
“I’ve got to dress and take the five-o’clock train back to town.”
“Oh!” She was chilled to ice. “Won’t you be here to dinner?”
“Why, no. Girard—do you remember my speaking of him? He’s sent me a
ticket for the Western Club dinner in town to-night. There will be fine
speaking; not that I care for that particularly, but it is really
important for me to be there. There are not many tickets; I’m in luck to
get one.” He stopped irresolutely. “You don’t mind my going? I thought
you’d be with the children.”
“No, I don’t mind your going.” She added under her breath, “And it
wouldn’t make any difference to you if I did.”
“What did you say?”
“Nothing.”
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