The bare thought of that explanation oppressed the young man with an
agony of timidity. He had always suffered from it in the presence of
that man whose name he bore, whose heir he was, whom he loved, and by
whom he was loved, and he had never been able to open his heart to him
fully, to explain himself concerning his inmost thoughts. His character,
which was very manly in respect to important decisions, but extremely
sensitive, and consequently easily disconcerted in its outward
manifestations, had always been taken by surprise as it were by that of
the marquis, so unhesitating, so dominating, so impervious to argument.
His resistance to this moral despotism was not altogether conscious. It
was that which incited him in his constant effort not to be an
"émigré," as he said, to make himself useful, to belong to his own
time, "to do his duty"--another of his phrases. We must repeat it. There
are none more just. Many another young man of his class has felt, as he
did, that magnanimous and praiseworthy appetite for efficient and
beneficent action. Many have, like him, tried to rebel against the
ostracism which France, the offspring of the Revolution, practises, by
her customs as well as by her laws, against the old families. They have,
like him, stumbled over obstacles. They have rarely felt them, as he
did, as tragedies. This excessive and morbid view of his destiny
betrayed in Landri a lack of equilibrium, of certainty. In truth, if, in
certain directions, his ideas were absolutely opposed to those of his
father, in others he underwent a veritable hypnotism at the hands of
that powerful personality, and he was very near the point of doubting
himself before an irreconcilability which he had not dared really to
face but once, when it was a question of entering Saint-Cyr. His mind
had been developed by reading, observation, reflection, all solitary,
constantly held in check by the loud speech, the imperious intelligence,
the steadfast and logical convictions, in a word, the decision, of the
marquis. Landri, too, had decision, but by fits and starts, and when he
had provided himself with very well-considered reasons therefor. His
father had it always, gaily, buoyantly, as he walked, as he breathed, by
an unfolding of his inward energy, if one may say so, which was as
natural in him as the muscular development is in a lion. The prestige of
that opulent and powerful nature maintained so complete a domination
over the temperament, more refined perhaps, but less masterful, of his
son, that he had been on the point of equivocating when Valentine asked
him for that promise. He had given it, however. His lover's pride would
have been too deeply humiliated to confess a weakness of which he was
now sensible once more.
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