"By Jove, that returned letter was my salvation! She thought she was
treating me as I deserved, severely; all the time she was only nerving
me to lace my armour and prepare for the great fight. I can easily
provide now against any course she may take short of denunciation, and I
don't think she will go so far as that.
"The reason for the sale, as Aldridge has heard it, will be known under
pledges of secrecy to-morrow to half-a-dozen of the most important men
in Daneford. That will be more than enough to counteract any sinister
rumours. The pledge of secrecy extracted from the men whom Aldridge
tells will not operate at all, save in making those to whom they give
the news very careful as to whom they in turn tell it. Thus it will
never come to her ears, even if she stays in Daneford, which I doubt;
and thus she will never have an opportunity of denying it."
He got up and walked about. His elation was great. He swelled out his
chest, threw back his shoulders, and allowed his arms to swing at his
sides. His thoughts ran on:
"I have been fencing with death, and for the moment I have disarmed my
foe. That sale might have ruined me, given me over to the hangman; I
have averted the danger, and turned the attack into a source of
security. In a moment of weakness I told her, in a moment of strength I
turned the feeble act into a fresh rampart; for how can I tell, if
things went on smoothly, as they had been going (had she not shown the
danger-signal at the Consols), I might not, in the weak and pitiful
state I then was in, have told her all? Now a gulf lies between her and
me. It is unlikely we shall ever meet again. She had the power of
exercising an influence over me which might not be to my safety. I have
ensured my future safety by getting away from the influence of the only
person who could make me indiscreetly talkative."
He paused in his walk and drew himself up before the glass. Much of the
haggard expression had left his face. He was flushed and
handsome-looking as of old. His eyes shone with excitement and the
anticipation of triumph.
Once more he strode up and down the room.
"I feel five-and-twenty to-day. Five-and-twenty; not a month older. And
though in spirits and health and strength I feel no more than half my
age, I am conscious I carry the experience of a second quarter of a
century on the shoulders of the first. I could command an army or make
love to a school-girl. I shall win yet. I shall win in spite of that
lanky nigger, Sir William. I shall win I know, I feel. These muscles are
more than a match for his; this head is more than a match for his; and
in spirits I am a long way his junior. I shall win now, for all
obstacles are out of my way. She is gone for ever, and she was the last
link with----Bah! the old time is dead. Earth to earth. I am a new man,
I say."
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