Lesbians -- England -- Social conditions -- Fiction
Then a gate slammed. That would be the gate of the meadow where the
heifers were pastured—it was yellow with king-cups. One of the men from
the home farm was going his rounds, securing all gates before sunset.
Something dropped on the bonnet of the car with a ping. Looking up she
met the eyes of a squirrel; he was leaning well forward on his tiny
front paws, peering crossly; he had dropped his nut on the bonnet. She
got out of the car and retrieved his supper, throwing it under his tree
while he waited. Like a flash he was down and then back on his tree,
devouring the nut with his legs well straddled.
All around were the homely activities of evening, the watering of
horses, the care of cattle—pleasant, peaceable things that preceded the
peace and repose of the coming nightfall. And suddenly Stephen longed to
share them, an immense need to share them leapt up within her, so that
she ached with this urgent longing that was somehow a part of her bodily
dejection.
She drove on and left the car at the stables, then walked round to the
house, and when she got there she opened the door of the study and went
in, feeling terribly lonely without her father. Sitting down in the old
arm-chair that had survived him, she let her head rest where his head
had rested; and her hands she laid on the arms of the chair where his
hands, as she knew, had lain times without number. Closing her eyes, she
tried to visualize his face, his kind face that had sometimes looked
anxious; but the picture came slowly and faded at once, for the dead
must often give place to the living. It was Angela Crossby’s face that
persisted as Stephen sat in her father’s old chair.
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In the small panelled room that gave on to the herb-garden, Angela
yawned as she stared through the window; then she suddenly laughed out
loud at her thoughts; then she suddenly frowned and spoke crossly to
Tony.
She could not get Stephen out of her mind, and this irritated while it
amused her. Stephen was so large to be tongue-tied and frightened—a
curious creature, not devoid of attraction. In a way—her own way—she
was almost handsome; no, quite handsome; she had fine eyes and beautiful
hair. And her body was supple like that of an athlete, narrow-hipped and
wide shouldered, she should fence very well. Angela was anxious to see
her fence; she must certainly try to arrange it somehow.
Mrs. Antrim had conveyed a number of things, while actually saying
extremely little; but Angela had no need of her hints, not now that she
had come to know Stephen Gordon. And because she was idle, discontented
and bored, and certainly not over-burdened with virtue, she must let her
thoughts dwell unduly on this girl, while her curiosity kept pace with
her thoughts.
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