Lesbians -- England -- Social conditions -- Fiction
‘Yes, thanks,’ she lied calmly, ‘we went over to Tewkesbury and had
another look at the abbey. We had tea in the town. I’m sorry we’re so
late, the carburettor choked, I couldn’t get it right at first, my car
needs a good overhauling.’
Lies, always lies! She was growing proficient at the glib kind of lying
that pacified Ralph, or at all events left him with nothing to say,
nonplussed and at a distinct disadvantage. She was suddenly seized with
a kind of horror, she felt physically sick at what she was doing. Her
head swam and she caught the jamb of the door for support—at that
moment she remembered her father.
2
Two days later as they sat alone in the garden at Morton, Stephen turned
to Angela abruptly: ‘I can’t go on like this, it’s vile somehow—it’s
beastly, it’s soiling us both—can’t you see that?’
Angela was startled. ‘What on earth do you mean?’
‘You and me—and then Ralph. I tell you it’s beastly—I want you to
leave him and come away with me.’
‘Are you mad?’
‘No, I’m sane. It’s the only decent thing, it’s the only clean thing;
we’ll go anywhere you like, to Paris, to Egypt, or back to the States.
For your sake I’m ready to give up my home. Do you hear? I’m ready to
give up even Morton. But I can’t go on lying about you to Ralph, I want
him to know how much I adore you—I want the whole world to know how I
adore you. Ralph doesn’t understand the first rudiments of loving, he’s
a nagging, mean-minded cur of a man, but there’s one thing that even he
has a right to, and that’s the truth. I’m done with these lies—I shall
tell him the truth and so will you, Angela; and after we’ve told him
we’ll go away, and we’ll live quite openly together, you and I, which is
what we owe to ourselves and our love.’
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