Lesbians -- England -- Social conditions -- Fiction
Angela stared at her, white and aghast: ‘You _are_ mad,’ she said
slowly, ‘you’re raving mad. Tell him what? Have I let you become my
lover? You know that I’ve always been faithful to Ralph; you know
perfectly well that there’s nothing to tell him beyond a few rather
schoolgirlish kisses. Can I help it if you’re—what you obviously are?
Oh, no, my dear, you’re not going to tell Ralph. You’re not going to let
all hell loose around me just because you want to save your own pride by
pretending to Ralph that you’ve been my lover. If you’re willing to give
up your home I’m not willing to sacrifice mine, understand that, please.
Ralph’s not much of a man but he’s better than nothing, and I’ve managed
him so far without any trouble. The great thing with him is to blaze a
false trail, that distracts his mind, it works like a charm. He’ll
follow any trail that I want him to follow—you leave him to me, I know
my own husband a darned sight better than you do, Stephen, and I won’t
have you interfering in my home.’ She was terribly frightened, too
frightened to choose her words, to consider their effect upon Stephen,
to consider anyone but Angela Crossby who stood in such dire and
imminent peril. So she said yet again, only now she spoke loudly: ‘I
won’t have you interfering in my home!’
Then Stephen turned on her, white with passion: ‘You—you—’ she
stuttered, ‘you’re unspeakably cruel. You know how you make me suffer
and suffer because I love you the way I do; and because you like the way
I love you, you drag the love out of me day after day—Can’t you
understand that I love you so much that I’d give up Morton? Anything I’d
give up—I’d give up the whole world. Angela, listen; I’d take care of
you always. Angela, I’m rich—I’d take care of you always. Why won’t you
trust me? Answer me—why? Don’t you think me fit to be trusted?’
She spoke wildly, scarcely knowing what she said; she only knew that she
needed this woman with a need so intense, that worthy or unworthy,
Angela was all that counted at that moment. And now she stood up, very
tall, very strong, yet a little grotesque in her pitiful passion, so
that looking at her Angela trembled—there was something rather terrible
about her. All that was heavy in her face sprang into view, the strong
line of the jaw, the square, massive brow, the eyebrows too thick and
too wide for beauty; she was like some curious, primitive thing
conceived in a turbulent age of transition.
‘Angela, come very far away—anywhere, only come with me
soon—to-morrow.’
Then Angela forced herself to think quickly, and she said just five
words: ‘Could you marry me, Stephen?’
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