Lesbians -- England -- Social conditions -- Fiction
From time to time Puddle would write from Morton, and then Anna would
say, recognizing the writing: ‘Is everything all right?’
And Stephen would answer: ‘Yes, Mother, Puddle says everything’s all
right.’ As indeed it was—at Morton.
But from Scotland news seemed to come very slowly. Stephen’s letters
would quite often go unanswered; and what answers she received were
unsatisfactory, for Angela’s caution was a very strict censor. Stephen
herself must write with great care, she discovered, in order to pacify
that censor.
Twice daily she visited the hotel porter, a kind, red-faced man with a
sympathy for lovers.
‘Any letters for me?’ she would ask, trying hard to appear rather bored
at the mere thought of letters.
‘No, miss.’
‘There’s another post in at seven?’
‘Yes, miss.’
‘Well—thank you.’
She would wander away, leaving the porter to think to himself: ‘She
don’t look like a girl as would have a young man, but you never can
tell. Anyhow she seems anxious—I do hope it’s all right for the poor
young lady.’ He grew to take a real interest in Stephen, and would
sometimes talk to his wife about her: ‘Have you noticed her, Alice? A
queer-looking girl, very tall, wears a collar and tie—you know,
mannish. And she seems just to change her suit of an evening—puts on a
dark one—never wears evening dress. The mother’s still a beautiful
woman; but the girl—I dunno, there’s something about her—anyhow I’m
surprised she’s got a young man; though she must have, the way she
watches the posts, I sometimes feel sorry for her.’
But her calls at his office were not always fruitless: ‘Any letters for
me?’
‘Yes, miss, there’s just one.’
He would look at her with a paternal expression, glad enough to think
that her young man had written; and Stephen, divining his thoughts from
his face, would feel embarrassed and angry. Snatching her letter she
would hurry to the beach, where the rocks provided a merciful shelter,
and where no one seemed likely to look paternal, unless it should be an
occasional seagull.
But as she read, her heart would feel empty; something sharp like a
physical pain would go through her: ‘Dear Stephen. I’m sorry I’ve not
written before, but Ralph and I have been fearfully busy. We’re having a
positive social orgy up here, I’m so glad he took this large
shoot. . . .’ That was the sort of thing Angela wrote these
days—perhaps because of her caution.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
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