Lesbians -- England -- Social conditions -- Fiction
And now she was crying a little to herself, letting the tears trickle
down unheeded. One of them splashed on to Stephen’s coat sleeve and lay
there, a small, dark blot on the cloth, while the patient arms never
faltered.
‘Stephen, say something—say you don’t hate me!’
A log crashed, sending up a bright spurt of flame, and Stephen stared
down into Angela’s face. It was marred by weeping; it looked almost
ugly, splotched and reddened as it was by her weeping. And because of
that pitiful, blemished face, with the pitiful weakness that lay behind
it, the unworthiness even, Stephen loved her so deeply at that moment,
that she found no adequate words.
‘Say something—speak to me, Stephen!’
Then Stephen gently released her arm, and she found the little white box
in her pocket: ‘Look, Angela, I got you this for your birthday—Ralph
can’t bully you about it, it’s a birthday present.’
‘Stephen—my dear!’
‘Yes—I want you to wear it always, so that you’ll remember how much I
love you. I think you forgot that just now when you talked about
hating—Angela, give me your hand, the hand that used to bleed in the
winter.’
So the pearl that was pure as her mother’s diamonds were pure, Stephen
slipped on to Angela’s finger. Then she sat very still, while Angela
gazed at the pearl wide-eyed, because of its beauty. Presently she
lifted her wondering face, and now her lips were quite close to
Stephen’s, but Stephen kissed her instead on the forehead. ‘You must
rest,’ she said, ‘you’re simply worn out. Can’t you sleep if I keep you
safe in my arms?’
For at moments, such is the blindness and folly yet withal the redeeming
glory of love.
CHAPTER 24
1
Ralph said very little about the ring. What could he say? A present
given to his wife by the daughter of a neighbour—an unusually costly
present of course—still, after all, what could he say? He took refuge
in sulky silence. But Stephen would see him staring at the pearl, which
Angela wore on her right-hand third finger, and his weak little eyes
would look redder than usual, perhaps with anger—one could never quite
tell from his eyes whether he was tearful or angry.
And because of those eyes with their constant menace, Stephen must play
her conciliatory role; and this she must do in spite of his rudeness,
for now he was openly rude and hostile. And he bullied. It was almost as
though he took pleasure in bullying his wife when Stephen was present;
her presence seemed to arouse in the man everything that was ill-bred,
petty and cruel. He would make thinly-veiled allusions to the past,
glancing sideways at Stephen the while he did so; and one day when she
flushed to the roots of her hair with rage to see Angela humble and
fearful, he laughed loudly: ‘I’m just a plain tradesman, you know; if
you don’t like my ways, then you’d better not come here.’ Catching
Angela’s eye, Stephen tried to laugh too.
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