Lesbians -- England -- Social conditions -- Fiction
Then, as sometimes happens in moments of great anguish, Stephen could
only remember the grotesque. She could only remember a plump-bosomed
housemaid in the arms of a coarsely amorous footman, and she laughed and
she laughed like a creature demented—laughed and laughed until she must
gasp for breath and spit blood from her tongue, which had somehow got
bitten in her efforts to stop her hysterical laughing; and some of the
blood remained on her chin, jerked there by that agonized laughter.
Pale as death, Roger Antrim stared out into the garden, and his tiny
moustache looked quite black—like an ink stain smeared above his
tremulous mouth by some careless, schoolboy finger.
And now Angela’s voice came to Stephen, but faintly. She was saying
something—what was she saying? It sounded absurdly as though it were a
prayer—‘Christ!’ Then sharply—razor-sharp it sounded as it cut through
the air: ‘_You_, Stephen!’
The laughter died abruptly away, as Stephen turned and walked out of the
garden and down the short drive that led to the gates of The Grange,
where the motor was waiting. Her face was a mask, quite without
expression. She moved stiffly, yet with a curious precision; and she
swung up the handle and started the powerful engine without any apparent
effort.
She drove at great speed but with accurate judgment, for now her mind
felt as clear as spring water, and yet there were strange little gaps in
her mind—she had not the least idea where she was going. Every road for
miles around Upton was familiar, yet she had not the least idea where
she was going. Nor did she know how long she drove, nor when she stopped
to procure fresh petrol. The sun rose high and hot in the heavens; it
beat down on her without warming her coldness, for always she had the
sense of a dead thing that lay close against her heart and oppressed it.
A corpse—she was carrying a corpse about with her. Was it the corpse of
her love for Angela? If so that love was more terrible dead—oh, far
more terrible dead than living.
The first stars were shining, but as yet very faintly, when she found
herself driving through the gates of Morton. Heard Puddle’s voice
calling: ‘Wait a minute. Stop, Stephen!’ Saw Puddle barring her way in
the drive, a tiny yet dauntless figure.
She pulled up with a jerk: ‘What’s the matter? What is it?’
‘Where have you been?’
‘I—don’t know, Puddle.’
But Puddle had clambered in beside her: ‘Listen, Stephen,’ and now she
was talking very fast, ‘listen, Stephen—is it—is it Angela Crossby? It
is. I can see the thing in your face. My God, what’s that woman done to
you, Stephen?’
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