Lesbians -- England -- Social conditions -- Fiction
On her first visit home Anna had said very quietly one day: ‘There’s
something, Stephen, that I think I ought to tell you perhaps, though
it’s painful to me to reopen the subject. There has been no
scandal—that man held his tongue—you’ll be glad to know this because
of your father. And Stephen—the Crossbys have sold The Grange and gone
to America, I believe—’ she had stopped abruptly, not looking at
Stephen, who had nodded, unable to answer.
So now there were quite different folk at The Grange, folk very much
more to the taste of the county—Admiral Carson and his apple-cheeked
wife who, childless herself, adored Mothers’ Meetings. Stephen must
sometimes go to The Grange with Anna, who liked the Carsons. Very grave
and aloof had Stephen become; too reserved, too self-assured, thought
her neighbours. They supposed that success had gone to her head, for no
one was now allowed to divine the terrible shyness that made social
intercourse such a miserable torment. Life had already taught Stephen
one thing, and that was that never must human beings be allowed to
suspect that a creature fears them. The fear of the one is a spur to the
many, for the primitive hunting instinct dies hard—it is better to face
a hostile world than to turn one’s back for a moment.
But at least she was spared meeting Roger Antrim, and for this she was
most profoundly thankful. Roger had gone with his regiment to Malta, so
that they two did not see each other. Violet was married and living in
London in the: ‘perfect duck of a house in Belgravia.’ From time to time
she would blow in on Stephen, but not often, because she was very much
married with one baby already and another on the way. She was somewhat
subdued and much less maternal that she had been when first she met
Alec.
If Anna was proud of her daughter’s achievement she said nothing beyond
the very few words that must of necessity be spoken: ‘I’m so glad your
book has succeeded, Stephen.’
‘Thank you, mother—’
Then as always these two fell silent. Those long and eloquent silences
of theirs were now of almost daily occurrence when they found themselves
together. Nor could they look each other in the eyes any more, their
eyes were for ever shifting, and sometimes Anna’s pale cheeks would
flush very slightly when she was alone with Stephen—perhaps at her
thoughts.
And Stephen would think: ‘It’s because she can’t help remembering.’
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