Lesbians -- England -- Social conditions -- Fiction
But Stephen was never able to decide whether Jonathan Brockett attracted
or repelled her. Brilliant he could be at certain times, yet curiously
foolish and puerile at others; and his hands were as white and soft as a
woman’s—she would feel a queer little sense of outrage creeping over
her when she looked at his hands. For those hands of his went so ill
with him somehow; he was tall, broad-shouldered, and of an extreme
thinness. His clean-shaven face was slightly sardonic and almost
disconcertingly clever; an inquisitive face too—one felt that it pried
into everyone’s secrets without shame or mercy. It may have been genuine
liking on his part or mere curiosity that had made him persist in
thrusting his friendship on Stephen. But whatever it had been it had
taken the form of ringing her up almost daily at one time; of worrying
her to lunch or dine with him, of inviting himself to her flat in
Chelsea, or what was still worse, of dropping in on her whenever the
spirit moved him. His work never seemed to worry him at all, and Stephen
often wondered when his fine plays got written, for Brockett very seldom
if ever discussed them and apparently very seldom wrote them; yet they
always appeared at the critical moment when their author had run short
of money.
Once, for the sake of peace, she had dined with him in a species of
glorified cellar. He had just then discovered the queer little place
down in Seven Dials, and was very proud of it; indeed, he was making it
rather the fashion among certain literary people. He had taken a great
deal of trouble that evening to make Stephen feel that she belonged to
these people by right of her talent, and had introduced her as ‘Stephen
Gordon, the author of _The Furrow_.’ But all the while he had secretly
watched her with his sharp and inquisitive grey eyes. She had felt very
much at ease with Brockett as they sat at their little dimly lit table,
perhaps because her instinct divined that this man would never require
of her more than she could give—that the most he would ask for at any
time would be friendship.
Then one day he had casually disappeared, and she heard that he had gone
to Paris for some months, as was often his custom when the climate of
London had begun to get on his nerves. He had drifted away like
thistledown, without so much as a word of warning. He had not said
good-bye nor had he written, so that Stephen felt that she had never
known him, so completely did he go out of her life during his sojourn in
Paris. Later on she was to learn, when she knew him better, that these
disconcerting lapses of interest, amounting as they did to a breach of
good manners, were highly characteristic of the man, and must of
necessity be accepted by all who accepted Jonathan Brockett.
And now here he was back again in England, sitting next to Stephen at
the Carringtons’ luncheon. And as though they had met but a few hours
ago, he took her up calmly just where he had left her. ‘May I come in
to-morrow?’
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