Lesbians -- England -- Social conditions -- Fiction
Angela Crossby—and yet there were times when she longed intensely to
see this woman, to hear her speak, to stretch out her arms and clasp
them around the woman’s body—not gently, not patiently as in the past,
but roughly, brutally even. Beastly—it was beastly! She felt degraded.
She had no love to offer Angela Crossby, not now, only something that
lay like a stain on the beauty of what had once been love. Even this
memory was marred and defiled, by herself even more than by Angela
Crossby.
Came the thought of that unforgettable scene with her mother. ‘I would
rather see you dead at my feet.’ Oh, yes—very easy to talk about death,
but not so easy to manage the dying. ‘We two cannot live together at
Morton. . . . One of us must go, which of us shall it be?’ The subtlety,
the craftiness of that question which in common decency could have but
one answer! Oh, well, she had gone and would go even farther. Raftery
was dead, there was nothing to hold her, she was free—what a terrible
thing could be freedom. Trees were free when they were uprooted by the
wind; ships were free when they were torn from their moorings; men were
free when they were cast out of their homes—free to starve, free to
perish of cold and hunger.
At Morton there lived an ageing woman with sorrowful eyes now a little
dim from gazing for so long into the distance. Only once, since her gaze
had been fixed on the dead, had this woman turned it full on her
daughter; and then her eyes had been changed into something accusing,
ruthless, abominably cruel. Through looking upon what had seemed
abominable to them, they themselves had become an abomination. Horrible!
And yet how dared they accuse? What right had a mother to abominate the
child that had sprung from her own secret moments of passion? She the
honoured, the fulfilled, the fruitful, the loving and loved, had
despised the fruit of her love. Its fruit? No, rather its victim.
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