Lesbians -- England -- Social conditions -- Fiction
On the drive back to Paris they were all very silent. Puddle was feeling
too tired to talk, and Stephen was oppressed by a sense of sadness—the
vast and rather beautiful sadness that may come to us when we have
looked upon beauty, the sadness that aches in the heart of Versailles.
Brockett was content to sit opposite Stephen on the hard little let-down
seat of her motor. He might have been comfortable next to the driver,
but instead he preferred to sit opposite Stephen, and he too was silent,
surreptitiously watching the expression of her face in the gathering
twilight.
When he left them he said with his cold little smile: ‘To-morrow, before
you’ve forgotten Versailles, I want you to come to the Conciergerie.
It’s very enlightening—cause and effect.’
At that moment Stephen disliked him intensely. All the same he had
stirred her imagination.
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In the weeks that followed, Brockett showed Stephen just as much of
Paris as he wished her to see, and this principally consisted of the
tourist’s Paris. Into less simple pastures he would guide her later on,
always provided that his interest lasted. For the present, however, he
considered it wiser to tread delicately like Agag. The thought of this
girl had begun to obsess him to a very unusual extent. He who had prided
himself on his skill in ferreting out other people’s secrets, was
completely baffled by this youthful abnormal. That she was abnormal he
had no doubt whatever, but what he was keenly anxious to find out was
just how her own abnormality struck her—he felt pretty sure that she
worried about it. And he genuinely liked her. Unscrupulous he might be
in his vivisection of men and women; cynical too when it came to his
pleasures, himself an invert, secretly hating the world which he knew
hated him in secret; and yet in his way he felt sorry for Stephen, and
this amazed him, for Jonathan Brockett had long ago, as he thought, done
with pity. But his pity was a very poor thing at best, it would never
defend and never protect her; it would always go down before any new
whim, and his whim at the moment was to keep her in Paris.
All unwittingly Stephen played into his hands, while having no illusions
about him. He represented a welcome distraction that helped her to keep
her thoughts off England. And because under Brockett’s skilful guidance
she developed a fondness for the beautiful city, she felt very tolerant
of him at moments, almost grateful she felt, grateful too towards Paris.
And Puddle also felt grateful.
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