Lesbians -- England -- Social conditions -- Fiction
And Stephen, who, if possible, loved her more, answered almost
brusquely: ‘Of course I love you.’ For her thoughts were still heavy
with the bitterness that had come of that visit of hers to Morton, and
which at all costs must be hidden from Mary.
There had been no marked change in her mother’s manner. Anna had been
very quiet and courteous. Together they had interviewed bailiff and
agent, scheming as always for the welfare of Morton; but one topic there
had been which Anna had ignored, had refused to discuss, and that topic
was Mary. With a suddenness born of exasperation, Stephen had spoken of
her one evening. ‘I want Mary Llewellyn to know my real home; some day I
must bring her to Morton with me.’ She had stopped, seeing Anna’s
warning face—expressionless, closed; while as for her answer, it had
been more eloquent far than words—a disconcerting, unequivocal silence.
And Stephen, had she ever entertained any doubt, must have known at that
moment past all hope of doubting, that her mother’s omission to invite
the girl had indeed been meant as a slight upon Mary. Getting up, she
had gone to her father’s study.
Puddle, who had held her peace at the time, had spoken just before
Stephen’s departure. ‘My dear, I know it’s all terribly hard about
Morton—about . . .’ She had hesitated.
And Stephen had thought with renewed bitterness: ‘Even she jibs, it
seems, at mentioning Mary.’ She had answered: ‘If you’re speaking of
Mary Llewellyn, I shall certainly never bring her to Morton, that is as
long as my mother lives—I don’t allow her to be insulted.’
Then Puddle had looked at Stephen gravely. ‘You’re not working, and yet
work’s your only weapon. Make the world respect you, as you can do
through your work; it’s the surest harbour of refuge for your friend,
the only harbour—remember that—and it’s up to you to provide it,
Stephen.’
Stephen had been too sore at heart to reply; but throughout the long
journey from Morton to Paris, Puddle’s words had kept hammering in her
brain: ‘You’re not working, and yet work’s your only weapon.’
So while Mary lay sleeping in Stephen’s arms on that first blessèd night
of their reunion, her lover lay wide-eyed with sleeplessness, planning
the work she must do on the morrow, cursing her own indolence and folly,
her illusion of safety where none existed.
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