Lesbians -- England -- Social conditions -- Fiction
There was Wanda, the struggling Polish painter; dark for a Pole with her
short, stiff black hair, and her dusky skin, and her colourless lips;
yet withal not unattractive, this Wanda. She had wonderful eyes that
held fire in their depths, hell-fire at times, if she had been drinking;
but at other times a more gentle flame, although never one that it was
safe to play with. Wanda saw largely. All that she envisaged was
immense, her pictures, her passions, her remorses. She craved with a
well-nigh insatiable craving, she feared with a well-nigh intolerable
terror—not the devil, she was brave with him when in her cups, but God
in the person of Christ the Redeemer. Like a whipped cur she crawled to
the foot of the Cross, without courage, without faith, without hope of
mercy. Outraged by her body she must ruthlessly scourge it—no good, the
lust of the eye would betray her. Seeing she desired and desiring she
drank, seeking to drown one lust in another. And then she would stand up
before her tall easel, swaying a little but with hand always steady. The
brandy went into her legs, not her hands; her hands would remain
disconcertingly steady. She would start some gigantic and heart-broken
daub, struggling to lose herself in her picture, struggling to ease the
ache of her passion by smearing the placid white face of the canvas with
ungainly yet strangely arresting forms—according to Dupont, Wanda had
genius. Neither eating nor sleeping she would grow very thin, so that
everybody would know what had happened. They had seen it before, oh, but
many times, and therefore for them the tragedy was lessened.
‘Wanda’s off again!’ some one might say with a grin. ‘She was tight this
morning; who is it this time?’
But Valérie, who hated drink like the plague, would grow angry; outraged
she would feel by this Wanda.
There was Hortense, Comtesse de Kerguelen; dignified and reserved, a
very great lady, of a calm and rather old-fashioned beauty. When Valérie
introduced her to Stephen, Stephen quite suddenly thought of Morton. And
yet she had left all for Valérie Seymour; husband, children and home had
she left; facing scandal, opprobrium, persecution. Greater than all
these most vital things had been this woman’s love for Valérie Seymour.
An enigma she seemed, much in need of explaining. And now in the place
of that outlawed love had come friendship; they were close friends,
these one-time lovers.
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