Lesbians -- England -- Social conditions -- Fiction
Inside the church would be brooding shadows, save where the wide lakes
of amber fire spread out from the endless votive candles. Above the high
altar the monstranced Host would gleam curiously white in the light of
the candles. The sound of praying, monotonous, low, insistent, would
come from those who prayed with extended arms, with crucified arms, all
day and all night for the sins of Paris.
Wanda would make her way to the statue of the silver Christ with one
hand on His heart, and the other held out in supplication. Kneeling down
she would sign herself with His Cross, then cover her eyes and forget
about Stephen. Standing quietly behind her Stephen would wonder what
Wanda was saying to the silver Christ, what the silver Christ was saying
to Wanda. She would think that He looked very weary, this Christ Who
must listen to so many supplications. Queer, unbidden thoughts came to
her at such moments; this Man Who was God, a God Who waited, could He
answer the riddle of Wanda’s existence, of her own existence? If she
asked, could He answer? What if she were suddenly to cry out loudly:
‘Look at us, we are two yet we stand for many. Our name is legion and we
also are waiting, we also are tired, oh, but terribly tired . . . Will
You give us some hope of ultimate release? Will You tell us the secret
of our salvation?’
Wanda would rise from her prayers rather stiffly to purchase a couple of
votive candles, and when she had stuck them into the sconce she would
touch the foot of the silver Christ as she bade Him farewell—a
time-honoured custom. Then she and Stephen might turn again to the lake
of fire that flowed round the monstrance.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
Reviews
Reviews
No reviews yet
Be the first to share your thoughts on this work.
Elsewhere in the archive
Join the Discussion
Join the discussion
Sign in to leave a comment or review.
Sign InorCreate an account