Lesbians -- England -- Social conditions -- Fiction
‘I’m tired,’ she explained rather fretfully in answer to Stephen’s look
of surprise; and she frowned as she turned her back abruptly. But Wanda
shied away from the brandy as a frightened horse will shy from fire; she
drank two large glasses of lemonade—an extremist she was in all things,
this Wanda. Quite soon she announced that she must go home to bed,
because of her latest picture which required every ounce of strength she
had in her; but before she went she said eagerly to Stephen:
‘Do let me show you the Sacré Cœur. You have seen it of course, but only
as a tourist; that is not really seeing it at all, you must come there
with me.’
‘All right,’ agreed Stephen.
When Jamie and Barbara had departed in their turn, Stephen took Mary
into her arms: ‘Dearest . . . has it been a fairly nice Christmas after
all?’ she inquired almost timidly.
Mary kissed her: ‘Of course it’s been a nice Christmas.’ Then her
youthful face suddenly changed in expression, the grey eyes growing
hard, the mouth resentful: ‘Damn that woman for what she’s done to us,
Stephen—the insolence of it! But I’ve learnt my lesson; we’ve got
plenty of friends without Lady Massey and Agnes, friends to whom we’re
not moral lepers.’ And she laughed, a queer, little joyless laugh.
Stephen flinched, remembering Brockett’s warning.
2
Wanda’s chastened and temperate mood persisted for several weeks, and
while it was on her she clung like a drowning man to Stephen, haunting
the house from morning until night, dreading to be alone for a moment.
It cannot be said that Stephen suffered her gladly, for now with the New
Year she was working hard on a series of articles and short stories;
unwilling to visualize defeat, she began once again to sharpen her
weapon. But something in Wanda’s poor efforts to keep sober, in her very
dependence, was deeply appealing, so that Stephen would put aside her
work, feeling loath to desert the unfortunate creature.
Several times they made a long pilgrimage on foot to the church of the
Sacré Cœur; just they two, for Mary would never go with them; she was
prejudiced against Wanda’s religion. They would climb the steep streets
with their flights of steps, grey streets, grey steps leading up from
the city. Wanda’s eyes would always be fixed on their goal—pilgrim eyes
they would often seem to Stephen. Arrived at the church she and Wanda
would stand looking down between the tall, massive columns of the porch,
on a Paris of domes and mists, only half revealed by the fitful
sunshine. The air would seem pure up there on the height, pure and
tenuous as a thing of the spirit. And something in that mighty temple of
faith, that amazing thrust towards the sublime, that silent yet
articulate cry of a nation to its God, would awaken a response in
Stephen, so that she would seem to be brushing the hem of an age-old and
rather terrible mystery—the eternal mystery of good and evil.
Public-domain text, read in full here on John Shaqi.
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