England -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction; English fiction -- 19th century
In sleep she sometimes dreamt of him, and that was perhaps worse; for
whilst the waking illusion only reproduced what he had actually said,
with all his tricks of tone, his suavities of expression, sleep brought
before her another Redgrave. He looked at her with a smile, indeed, but
a smile of such unutterable malignity that she froze with terror. It
was always the same. Redgrave stood before her smiling, silent; stood
and gazed until in a paroxysm of anguish she cried out and broke the
dream. Once, whilst the agony was upon her, she sprang from bed,
meaning to go to her husband and tell him everything, and so, it might
be, put an end to her sufferings. But with her hand upon the door she
lost courage. Impossible! She could not hope to be believed. She could
never convince her husband that she had told him all.
Upon _her_ lay the guilt of Redgrave's death. This had entered slowly
into her consciousness; at first rejected, but ever returning until the
last argument of self-solace gave way. But for her visit to the
bungalow that evening, Hugh Carnaby would not have been maddened to the
point of fatal violence. In the obscurity he had mistaken her figure
for that of Sibyl; and when Redgrave guarded her retreat, he paid for
the impulse with his life.
On the Sunday before her concert, she had thought of going to see
Redgrave, but the risk seemed too great, and there was no certainty of
finding him at home. She wished above all things to see him, for there
was a suspicion in her mind that Mrs. Strangeways had a plot against
her, though of its nature she could form no idea. It might be true that
Redgrave was purposely holding aloof, whether out of real jealousy, or
simply as a stratagem, a new move in the game. She would not write to
him; she knew the danger of letters, and had been careful never to
write him even the simplest note. If she must remain in uncertainty
about his attitude towards her, the approaching ordeal would be
intensified with a new agitation: was he coming to her recital, or was
he not? She had counted upon triumphing before him. If he could stay
away, her power over him was incomplete, and at the moment when she had
meant it to be irresistible.
The chance encounter on Monday with Hugh Carnaby made her think of
Sibyl, and she could not rest until she had endeavoured to learn
something of Sibyl's movements. As Carnaby was leaving town, his wife
would be free; and how did Sibyl use her freedom? On that subject Mrs
Strangeways had a decided opinion, and her knowledge of the world made
it more than probable that she was right. Without any scheme of
espionage, obeying her instinct of jealous enmity, Alma hastened to
Oxford and Cambridge Mansions. But Sibyl had left home, and--was not
expected to return that night.
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