The terrible truth must here be told. The reader will, I feel
confident, sympathise. While living abroad, travelling hither and
thither through the old Italian towns, where I delighted to roam in the
big white piazzas and through the crumbling palaces, every stone of
which spoke of a brilliant and historic past, I had been suddenly seized
by disease, and for three months lay tossing upon my bed in an English
pension in Florence, tended by two calm, sweet-faced sisters of charity,
with their grey-blue habits and great white linen head-dresses, which in
my hours of fever and delirium seemed always so clean and cool. The two
great Italian professors who were called to me shook their heads,
believing that, even if they managed to save my life, it would be at a
loss of one of my senses. In this, alas! they were not mistaken. My
eyes became affected by sclerotitis, a severe inflammation of the
sclerotic. Gradually my eyes, those most beautiful structures of the
human body which manifest in such small compass the great, the
unspeakable, the incomprehensible power of our Creator, grew dim. My
sight was slowly but surely failing me. I was recovering from my bodily
ailment to be attacked by the ophthalmic disease which the doctors had
all along feared.
I implored of them to do something to preserve my sight, but they only
dropped into my eye certain liquids from their little brown glass
phials, and regarded the effect gravely. A great oculist from Rome came
to give his opinion. I saw him but mistily, as though I were looking
through a dense fog; and he, too, told me that all that could be done
had already been done.
I arose from my bed a fortnight later stone blind.
With this terrible affliction upon me I returned to London with Dick
Doyle, who came out to Florence to fetch me home. For me, life had no
further charm. The beauties of the world which had given me so much
pleasure and happiness were blotted out for me for ever. I lived now
only in an eternal darkness which by day, when the sun shone upon my
eyes, seemed to assume a dull dark red. At first it struck me that
because my sight had been destroyed my personal appearance must have
altered, but Dick assured me that it had not. No one, he declared,
could tell by looking at my eyes that they were actually sightless.
And so I, Wilford Heaton, lived in those dull old chambers in Essex
Street, in rooms that I had never seen.
You, who have sight to read these lines, can you imagine what it is to
be suddenly struck blind? Close your eyes for a brief five minutes and
see how utterly helpless you become, how entirely dependent you are upon
others, how blank would be your life if you were always thus.
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