The will to live (Les Roquevillard) : $b A novel — John Shaqi
The will to live (Les Roquevillard) : $b A novelBordeaux, Henry
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The will to live (Les Roquevillard) : $b A novel
Bordeaux, Henry
Elopement -- Fiction; Families -- Fiction; France -- Fiction; French fiction -- Translations into English
He made a negligent gesture toward the right, but instead of following
the movement of his arm, she turned toward him, and was aghast to
find his face so full of anguish. She understood. For herself she
could view like a passing tourist these lofty beauties of nature’s
mood. Her companion did not feel it thus. Was it not his own land’s
supreme attempt to hold him back? Down there he could see La Vigie,
and memories of his childhood, of a childhood all clean and pure, rose
up from the earth like birds and came to him. Nearer, as he could tell
from the vicinity of the castle, was “The House,” that place which each
of us calls, just like that, “the house,” as if there were but one in
the world.
She followed this last conflict that showed in Maurice’s eyes with a
sort of envy, she who had nothing to give up herself. With a sigh she
touched him on the shoulder.
“Listen,” she said, “let me go away alone.”
But he was uncomfortable at being detected in the most hidden and
instinctive impulses of his soul.
“No, no! You don’t love me, then, any more?”
“As if I didn’t!”
She smiled at him, with an infinitely tender smile that he
did not see. The fires in her eyes grew veiled. A woman of
to-day, keen for sincerity and the individual life, grown suddenly
impatient after nine years of silent waiting, she had decided, cost
what it might, to take advantage of her husband’s temporary absence and
escape out of the prison house of her marriage. Her romantic departure
had been carefully prepared in all its practical details, and in its
chosen hour. Maurice’s irritation with his father favoured her plan
and left him almost at her mercy. And yet now, how could she best
testify to her great love for Maurice? By associating him with her in
her inevitable and dangerous destiny, or, better still, by leaving him
here in his native place? Before her love for him she could not bear
her life. He had, without knowing it, fanned the spirit of revolt in
her. How could she separate herself from him? The offer she had just
made him broke her very heart, and yet she insisted on it. Never before
had she been so conscious of the detachment from herself which passion
now and then lets loose on us, as a humid plain is burned dry by the
devouring sun.
“One thing at a time, slowly,” she replied, “you would forget me. Don’t
protest. Listen to me. You are so young. All your life is before you.
Let me go alone.”
But he revolted against this injurious condescension. What was to keep
him back? Had not his reason--the reasoning of twenty-four--shown the
right of every one to seek his own happiness?
“I don’t want life without you,” he protested.
“I will stay,” she said again, “if you prefer it. I shall learn to tell
better lies, you’ll see. When one is in love all wrongs are right for
the sake of love.”
It was a proposal made too late. This time she knew, and watched for a
refusal. It came, and she threw herself against her lover’s breast.
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