The will to live (Les Roquevillard) : $b A novelBordeaux, Henry
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The will to live (Les Roquevillard) : $b A novel
Bordeaux, Henry
Elopement -- Fiction; Families -- Fiction; France -- Fiction; French fiction -- Translations into English
As the day was Sunday, all this floating population was afoot. Bells
were sounding the letting out of high mass when Maurice arrived.
He passed a procession of women coming home with prayer-books in
hand, while the men devoted themselves to bowling, and from each
public-house sounds of guitars and harmonicas issued forth with the
smell of cooking. Maurice ate for a modest sum in a shabby-looking
osteria, in company with noisy comrades. Instead of profiting by the
daylight and leaving abruptly--night in November falls so fast--he
lingered improvidently, as if he preferred the vulgarest noisiness
to solitude. He could not make up his mind to cross the frontier. It
was the material symbol of his break, and he clung desperately to his
love. Even in this smoky room, whose deafening noise, by keeping him
from thinking, allayed his misery, it seemed to him he still lived in
distant communication with Edith.
A little before the gorges of Gondo, with its roaring
cascades, he came upon the stone that marked the dividing line
between the two countries. Once past it, he was conscious of a shadow
that fell across his heart, before even he could pick out the bit of
thin earth between the rocks where the path led. Raising his head, he
could see the last rosy light fading from the sky. Night, which came
upon him much sooner than he had counted on in his itinerary, prevented
him from taking the short cut by which the long climb round Algoby is
avoided. He arrived very late and tired at the village of Simplon,
where he had supper and got some rest.
When he took up his journey again complete darkness and silence
waited for him outside the inn door. He accepted them as the natural
companions of his dreary voyage. He was fulfilling a duty: outward
conditions mattered little to him. Had he not killed his happiness with
his own hands, and must not murderers expiate their sins? The moon was
on the wane, and did not show herself till eleven o’clock, as he neared
the summit of the path. In the moonlight he could see that he was alone
in a deserted and desolate amphitheatre, covered with snow that made
all objects look alike. He could not even hear the sound of his own
footfalls. His shadow kept him company fitfully, now lengthening out,
now growing thin, appearing and disappearing.
Out of breath and with weary limbs, he searched the horizon for some
sign of the hospice. Could he have passed it farther back without
noticing it? He was so tired he could not judge of distances any more.
And, after all, what was the use of so much effort? He had only to let
himself sink down by the roadside. In the snow he could sleep or die
with equal ease. It would be the end of thinking, of tramping.
“Edith!” he murmured aloud.
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