The will to live (Les Roquevillard) : $b A novelBordeaux, Henry
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The will to live (Les Roquevillard) : $b A novel
Bordeaux, Henry
Elopement -- Fiction; Families -- Fiction; France -- Fiction; French fiction -- Translations into English
At the sound of his own voice he stopped, startled as if some one had
called to him. Was it not she who called him once again, the last time?
He was going to join her painlessly. Already he was no longer conscious
of his limbs. He would slip away toward her, as gently as the moon’s
rays fell upon the snow. The excess of his fatigue, the cold, the
rarity of the air, not less than his despair, gave him hallucinations.
In this stage of exhaustion from cold one who stops is lost. He could
no longer put one foot before another. He was only a broken mechanism.
“Edith!” he called again.
And he smiled. No suffering touched him. It was so simple to sit
down and wait. In front of him, toward the right, the glaciers of
Monte Leone flashed and trembled, as if some movement animated them.
It seemed to him that the whole white landscape was displacing
itself, moving back toward Italy. He felt a kind of exquisite
beatitude in his torpor. The instinct of self-preservation, or his
curious watching for the mirage, made him keep his eyes opened,
though sleepiness was heavy on them; yet he had no more desire to
stir. The silence of the mountain, accentuated by the snow and
moonlight, filled all space, rising even to the stars.
In this shifting of the landscape through which he slipped away
there was an arresting moment when his satchel fell, relinquished
mechanically by his hand. The movement that he made to pick it up broke
the spell. He knew his danger from the difficulty he had in moving his
limbs at all.
“But here, I’m going to die,” he said to himself sharply. “All alone
here in this waste.”
To die! Edith, toward whom he had fancied he was going back,
disappeared immediately from his thoughts, like a siren into the depths
of the sea, and in her place appeared the country of his childhood, the
hillside of La Vigie, and his family.
“They are waiting for me.”
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