“Look here now,” I cried, “this place is quite queer enough without
going out of our way to imagine things! That boat was an ordinary boat,
and the man in it was an ordinary man, and they were both going
down-stream as fast as they could lick. And that otter _was_ an otter,
so don’t let’s play the fool about it!”
He looked steadily at me with the same grave expression. He was not in
the least annoyed. I took courage from his silence.
“And, for Heaven’s sake,” I went on, “don’t keep pretending you hear
things, because it only gives me the jumps, and there’s nothing to hear
but the river and this cursed old thundering wind.”
“You _fool!_” he answered in a low, shocked voice, “you utter fool.
That’s just the way all victims talk. As if you didn’t understand just
as well as I do!” he sneered with scorn in his voice, and a sort of
resignation. “The best thing you can do is to keep quiet and try to
hold your mind as firm as possible. This feeble attempt at
self-deception only makes the truth harder when you’re forced to meet
it.”
My little effort was over, and I found nothing more to say, for I knew
quite well his words were true, and that _I_ was the fool, not _he_. Up
to a certain stage in the adventure he kept ahead of me easily, and I
think I felt annoyed to be out of it, to be thus proved less psychic,
less sensitive than himself to these extraordinary happenings, and half
ignorant all the time of what was going on under my very nose. _He
knew_ from the very beginning, apparently. But at the moment I wholly
missed the point of his words about the necessity of there being a
victim, and that we ourselves were destined to satisfy the want. I
dropped all pretence thenceforward, but thenceforward likewise my fear
increased steadily to the climax.
“But you’re quite right about one thing,” he added, before the subject
passed, “and that is that we’re wiser not to talk about it, or even to
think about it, because what one _thinks_ finds expression in words,
and what one _says_, happens.”
That afternoon, while the canoe dried and hardened, we spent trying to
fish, testing the leak, collecting wood, and watching the enormous
flood of rising water. Masses of driftwood swept near our shores
sometimes, and we fished for them with long willow branches. The island
grew perceptibly smaller as the banks were torn away with great gulps
and splashes. The weather kept brilliantly fine till about four
o’clock, and then for the first time for three days the wind showed
signs of abating. Clouds began to gather in the south-west, spreading
thence slowly over the sky.
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