"Who wouldn't take it hard? To be expelled, fired out like a thief,
a--" The girl's voice broke; then she pulled herself together and
uttered a quavering, artificial laugh. She tossed her head again, with
an obvious attempt at defiance. "Oh, it takes more than a pink ticket
to down me! Anyhow, I'm sick of this place, sick of the people. I hate
them." With a vicious fling of her shoulders she swept on to a seat as
far from them as possible and sank into it.
So the girl had confessed, Hilda reflected. She was glad, for Pierce's
sake, that this miserable complication was in process of clearing up
and that he would be finally and completely exonerated; she was glad,
too, that her efforts in his behalf, her humiliation, had borne fruit.
He would never know how high he had made her pay, but that was all
right. She felt very gently toward him at this moment, and experienced
a certain wistful desire that he might understand how unselfish had
been her part. It might make a difference; probably it would. Things
now were not as they had been. She was a free woman. This thought
obtruded itself insistently into the midst of her meditations. Yes,
Courteau was gone; there was no reason now why she could not look any
man honestly in the eye. Of course, there was the same disparity in
years between her and Pierce which she had recognized from the
beginning, but, after all, was that necessarily fatal? He had loved her
genuinely enough at one time. Hilda recalled that windy night on the
shores of Linderman when the whimper of a rising storm came out of the
darkness, when the tree-tops tossed their branches to the sky, and when
her own soul had broken its fetters and defied restraint. She thrilled
at memory of those strong young arms about her, those hot lips pressing
hers. That was a moment to remember always. And those dreamy, magic
days that had followed, the more delightful, the more unreal because
she had deliberately drugged her conscience. Then that night at White
Horse! He had told her bitterly, broken-heartedly, that he could never
forget. Perhaps even yet--With an effort Hilda Courteau roused herself.
Never forget? Why, he had forgotten the very next day, as was quite
natural. No, she was a foolish sentimentalist, and he--well, he was
just one whom fate had cast for a lover's role, one destined to excite
affection in women, good and bad. Some day he would find his mate
and--Hilda believed she loved him well enough to rejoice in his
happiness when it came. There spoke the maternal instinct which
Phillips had the knack of rousing; for want of something better, she
determined she would cherish that.
Meanwhile Laure sat in her corner, her head bowed, her very soul in
revolt. She was tasting failure, disappointment, balked desire, and it
was like gall in her mouth. She could have cried out aloud in her rage.
She hated these other women whom she blamed for her undoing; she hated
Cavendish, Pierce Phillips, herself.
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