Canadian fiction; Criminals -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction
It was one night after a lucky plunge on a 20 to 1 horse had brought him
in an unexpected fortune of eighteen hundred dollars, that Durkin,
driving past Madison Square through the chilly afternoon of the late
autumn, with a touch of winter already in the air, allowed his thoughts
to wander back to what seemed the thin and empty existence as a
train-despatcher and a Postal-Union operator. As he gazed out on the
closed cars and the women and the lights, and felt the warmth of the
silent girl at his side, he wondered how he had ever endured those old,
colorless days. He marvelled at the hold which the mere spectacular side
of life could get on one. He tried to tell himself that he hated the
ill-gotten wealth that lay so heavy and huge in his pocket at that
moment; and he smothered his last warmth of satisfaction with the phrase
which she had used a few days before: “Their diseased lust for gain
without toil.” Then he tried to think of the life he was leading, with
one figure eliminated; and the blankness of the prospect appalled him.
With a sudden impetuous motion he caught up her hand, where it lay idly
in her lap, and held it close. She tried to draw it away, but could not.
“Everything seems so different, Frank, since I’ve known you!” he said, a
little huskily.
“It’s different with me, too!” she all but whispered, looking away. Her
face, in the waning light, against the gloom of the dark-curtained
taxi-cab, looked pale, and, as he had so often felt, almost flower-like.
“Frank!” he cried in a voice that started her breathing quickly. “Won’t
you—won’t you marry me?”
She looked at him out of what seemed frightened eyes, with an unnatural
and half-startled light on her pale face.
“I love you, Frank, more than I could ever tell you!” he went on,
impetuously. “You could walk over me, you could break me, and do what
you like with me, and I’d be happy!”
“Oh, you don’t know me, you don’t know me!” she cried. “You don’t know
what I’ve been!” And some agony of mind seemed to wrench her whole body.
“I don’t care what you’ve been—I know what you _are_! You’re the woman
I’d give my life for—I’d lay it down, without a thought, for you! And,
good Lord, look at me! Don’t you think I’m bad enough myself—and a
hundred times more weak and vacillating than you! I love you, Frank;
isn’t that enough?”
“No!” she mourned, “it’s not enough!”
“But you’ve got to be loved, you want to be loved, or you wouldn’t have
eyes and a mouth like that! It’s the only thing, now, that can make life
worth while!”
She let him catch her up to his shoulder and hold her there, with her
wet cheek against his; she even said nothing when he bent and kissed her
on the lips, though her face grew colorless at his touch.
“I do love you,” she sighed weakly. “I do love you! I do!” and she clung
to him, childishly, shaken with a sob or two, happy, yet vaguely
troubled.
“Then why can’t we get away from here, somewhere, and be happy?”
“Where?” she asked.
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