Pennsylvania -- Fiction; United States -- Social life and customs -- 19th century -- Fiction
“It was when I was at college; I needed money; and--poor,
desperate, wicked, silly young man--I forged Professor Wilson’s
name. I don’t know what I supposed would become of me when it
was found out. And I don’t know what would have become of me,
but Henry Wilson died before the month was out, and so, by some
strange chance, it never was discovered. If it had been--well,
you and I would not have been here to-day. Human justice would
have interposed before Divine mercy”--He looked up with a solemn
elation which seemed to put self out of his mind. “I might have
gone lower and lower! Who can say? It was an easy thing to do,
for I was his secretary, and he trusted me. That, of course, was
the most horrible part of what I did, the part that now seems to
me incomprehensible--the broken trust! Well, of course, I made
reparation, as I called it, out of the money he left me. I gave
away many times the amount I stole; but it was only because I was
scared at the risk I had run, and the thought of it harassed me. It
was a sort of expedient morality, you know; a sort of bargain with
my conscience for peace of mind. Then, about a year afterwards, I
met X----. I heard him preach, and life changed. How extraordinary
it seems to look back upon it now! Then I repented. Before, I had
only reformed. That was when I entered the divinity school. But
just think, Amy, just think of the difference! How life might have
gone--yet here I am to-day, your lover, your husband. Oh, the mercy
of God!”
He was deeply moved. He got up and walked the length of the room.
Amy sat silently looking down at her hands in her lap. When he
came back, his eyes were full of peace.
“That is all, dearest; now we will forget it. You know my life as
you do your own.”
“Forget it?” she repeated, with a sudden, sobbing laugh, that tore
at the man’s heart.
“Amy! dearest! have I shocked you so? Remember, it was twenty-three
years ago; I was only a boy. Let me tell you how it was: I was
madly in love with a woman; at least, it was not love, but I
thought it was; she fascinated me, and”--
“Oh, go on--go on!” she interrupted, hoarsely; “as if I cared about
that!”
He tried to take her hand, but she made a pretense of arranging
the flowers in her belt; her head was turned a little from him. He
leaned forward, with a grave authority to command her attention,
took the pansies from her, and held them in his hand.
“I was possessed to marry her. Of course, she would not look at
me--a penniless, charity student. But I strained every nerve to
win her. It was the old story. She took my flowers, or theatre
tickets, or anything I could give her. Curious, the mercenariness
of the woman did not revolt me! But I was mad about her. I thought,
at last, that if I had money I could give her some jewels she
wanted, and perhaps she would accept me. That was how it came
about. She took the diamonds, and eloped with a married man two
days afterwards.”
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