Love stories, German; Sisters -- Fiction; Suicide victims -- Fiction
"'If your daughter Martha truly loves my son Robert, it will not prove
hard for her to renounce all thoughts of a marriage with him in the
interests of his welfare, provided, of course, he should still have the
courage to propose to her in spite of his parents' opposition--although
I do not expect such filial disobedience from him, and absolutely
cannot imagine such a thing. I am convinced, my dear relations, that
your brotherly and sisterly affection will prompt you to join with me
in refusing your consent, now and for ever, to such a pernicious and
unnatural union,
"'Yours, with sincere love,
"'Johanna Hellinger.
"'P.S.--How have your crops turned out? Winter rye with us is good, but
the potatoes show much disease.'
* * * * *
"Rage at this mean and hypocritical piece of writing so possessed me,
that loudly laughing, I crumpled the sheet of paper beneath my feet.
"My laughter probably hurt Martha, for it was her moaning which at
length brought me back to my senses. There she lay now, helplessly
smitten down, as if shattered by the blow which should have steeled her
strength for enhanced resistance. And as I gazed down upon her,
tortured by the consciousness of being condemned to look on idly, there
once again broke forth from my soul that sigh of former times: 'Oh,
that you were--she!' But what new meaning it concealed! What then had
been folly and childishness, had now developed into seriousness of
purpose, ready self-sacrifice, and consciousness of strength.
"I determined to act as long as ever there was time yet. First of all,
I would go to my parents, tell them what I had done, and that for a
long time already I had been initiated into everything--and finally
demand of them to assign to me at length that position in the family
council which, in spite of my youth, was due to me.
"But I rejected this idea again. As soon as I participated in the
deliberations of my family, it became my duty not to act contrary to
whatever they thought good, and only if I apparently took no heed of
anything, could I be working for the salvation of my poor sister
according to my own plans and my own judgment.
"I very soon saw how matters lay. Each one had read in the letter what
most appealed to his nature.
"Papa, quite possessed by a poor man's pride, would, after this, have
thought it a disgrace to let his child enter a family where she would
be looked at disparagingly. Mama, for her part, had been touched
by the interspersed professions of affection, and thought that her
sister-in-law's confidence ought not to be abused.
"And my sister?
"That same night, as I kept watch at her bedside, I felt her place her
hot hand upon mine and draw me gently towards her with her feeble arm.
"'I have something to say to you, Olga,' she whispered, still looking
up at the ceiling with her sad eyes.
"'Had we not better leave it till to-morrow?' I suggested.
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