Love stories, German; Sisters -- Fiction; Suicide victims -- Fiction
"A low, suppressed laugh sounded down to me through the semi-obscurity.
"'The child--h'm--the child----' and instead of completing his
sentence, he gave the dogs a kick, which sent them tearing out of the
house forthwith.
"'Come,' he then said, 'I will show you the way.'
"We went upstairs, silently, without looking at each other.
"'You have grown a stranger to him!' I thought to myself, and terror
arose within me, as if I had lost some long-cherished happiness.
"'Wait a moment,' he said, pointing to one of the nearest doors. 'I
should like to say a word to her to prepare her; the excitement, else,
might hurt her.'
"Next moment I stood alone in a dark, high-vaulted corridor, at the
further end of which the rays of the departing day shone in dark
glowing flames, and cast a long streak of light upon the shining flags
of the flooring. Undefined sounds, like the singing of a child's voice,
floated past my ears, when the draught caught in the arches.
"A low cry of joy, which penetrated to me through the door, made me
start up. My blood welled hotly to my heart: I felt as if its rushing
must choke me. Then the door opened, Robert's hand groped for me in the
darkness. Quite dazed, I allowed myself to be pulled forward, and only
recovered myself when I had dropped on my knees at a bedside, burying
my face in the pillows, while a moist, hot hand lovingly stroked my
head. A feeling of homeliness, soft and soothing, such as I had not
known for years, cajoled my senses. I feared to raise my eyes, for I
thought it must all be lost to me again if I did.
"Like a blessing from above the hand rested upon my head. Supreme
gratitude filled my breast. I seized the hand which trembled in mine
and pressed my lips upon it long and passionately.
"'What are you doing there, sister--what are you doing?' I heard her
tired, slightly veiled voice.
"I raised myself up. There she lay before me, pale and thin-faced, with
dark hollows round her eyes, in which tears were glistening. Like a
flake of snow she lay there, so delicate and so white; blue, swollen
veins were traceable on her wan neck, and on her forehead, which seemed
to shine as with a light from within, there stood beads of
perspiration. She was aged and worn since I had last seen her, and it
did not seem as if the crisis of the birth alone had acted
destructively upon her. But her smile remained the same as of old, that
loving, comforting, blessing-dispensing smile, with which she helped
every one, even though she herself might be utterly helpless.
"'And now you will not go away again,' she said, looking at me as if
she could never gaze her fill; 'you will stay with us--for always.
Promise it me--promise it me now at once!'
"I was silent. Happiness had come upon me, burning like a fire from
heaven. It tortured me, it hurt me.
"'Do help me to entreat her, Robert.' she began anew.
"I started. I had entirely forgotten him, and now his presence acted
upon me like a reproach.
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