The cousin in question was evidently motioned to, for he appeared in
the range of Joy's vision with a charming certainty of welcome, and
the two merged themselves with the circle without more ceremony.
They had evidently made their way to the dressing-rooms before
coming to hunt for the family.
While Gail introduced her cousin a little more thoroughly, Joy gave
her a furtive, but still more thorough, inspection. She seemed
twenty-five or six. She was very slim, with lines like a boy more
than a girl; sallow, with large, steady blue-gray eyes and heavy
lashes, and lips that were so full that they were sullen-looking
when her face was still. She was not unusually pretty--indeed, by
Phyllis' rose-and-golden beauty she looked dingy--but she had
something arresting about her, and the carriage and manner of a girl
who is insolently certain that whatever she says or does is perfect
because she does it. She had on a straight blue chiffon frock, cut
unusually low: so low that it was continually slipping off one thin
shoulder. Allan confided to Joy afterward that Gail's shoulder-straps
worried him to madness.
Joy watched Miss Maddox with fascinated eyes. "I'm so _young_!"
she thought forlornly, "and all the rest of them are so dreadfully
grown-up!"
She felt as if Gail Maddox, with her brilliant, careless sentences,
and her half-insolent confidence, owned everybody there much more
than _she_ did: and she felt little and underdressed and outclassed
to a point where even Gail might pity her, and probably did.... And
if there is a more abjectly awful feeling than that the Other Girl
pities you, nobody has discovered it yet.... Gail might even know how
much of a pretender she was. If John--but no. John wasn't like that.
He was--"fantastically honorable," she had heard Phyllis call it.
John hadn't told--he wouldn't tell if his own happiness depended
on it.... And Joy let her thoughts stray off into a maze of wondering
as to whether she would rather have her self-respect saved by not
having Gail know, or whether, if it would break John's heart to be
separated forever from Gail, she oughtn't to tell him to tell.
Gail, lounging in a low chair she had dragged across the waxed floor
in the face of all outcries, with one electric-blue-shod foot
stretched out before her, looked exactly the person you'd care least
to have know anything they could scorn you about. She could scorn so
well and so convincingly, Joy felt, listening to her. There wouldn't
be a thing left of you when she got through.
"I feel as alone as Robinson Crusoe," thought Joy forlornly.
She rose restlessly and picked up the tray which had borne their
illegal sandwiches, with the idea of carrying it and herself out of
sight. She wanted a minute to brace herself in.
As she did it, Allan rose, too, unexpectedly, as he did most things.
"Here, I'll take some of those," he offered, and helped her carry
the debris out.
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