England -- Fiction; Magic -- Fiction; South Africa -- Fiction
“Ernest, if you talk to me like that, I will go away, and leave you to
find your own way home. I know well of whom you have been thinking
every day and every night. It was not of me. Now, confess it.”
“Don’t let’s talk of _her,_ Doll. If you talk of the devil, you know,
you sometimes raise him; not that he requires much raising in this
instance,” he laughed bitterly.
“I was so sorry for you, Ernest dear, and I did my best; indeed I did.
But I could do nothing with her. She must have been off her head, or
that man” (Dorothy always spoke of Plowden as ‘that man’)” and Florence
had some power over her; or perhaps she never really cared for you;
there are some women, you know, who seem very sweet, but cannot truly
care for anybody except themselves. At any rate, she married, and has a
family of children, for I have seen their births in the paper. Oh,
Ernest, when I think of all you must have suffered out there about that
woman, I cease to be sorry for her, and begin to hate her. I am afraid
you have been very unhappy, Ernest, all these years.”
“Ah, yes, I have been unhappy sometimes—sometimes I have consoled
myself. There, what is the use of telling lies?—I have always been
unhappy, and never so much so as when I have been in process of
consolation. But you should not hate her, poor girl! Perhaps she has
her bad times too; only, fortunately, you women cannot feel, at least
not much—not like us, I mean.”
“I don’t know about that,” put in Dorothy.
“Well, I will qualify my remark—most women. And, besides, it is not
quite her fault; people cannot help themselves much in this world. She
was appointed to be my evil destiny, that is all, and she must fulfil
her mission. All my life she will probably bring me trouble, till at
last the fate works itself out. But, Dolly, my dear, there must be an
end to these things, and Nature, always fertile in analogies, teaches
us that the end of sorrow will be happiness. It is from the darkness of
night that day is born, and ice and snow are followed by the flowers.
Nothing is lost in the world, as old Alston used to say, and it is
impossible to suppose that all the grief and suffering are alone
wasted; that they are the only dull seed that will not, when their day
comes, bloom into a beautiful life. They may seem to be intangible
things now; but, after all, the difference between tangible and
intangible is only a difference of matter. We know that intangible
things are real enough, and perhaps in a future state we shall find
that they are the true immortal parts. I think so myself.”
“I think so too.”
“Well, then, Doll, you see, if once one gets the mastery of that idea,
it makes the navigation easier. Once admit that everything works to an
end, and that end a good and enduring one, and you will cease to call
out under your present sorrows. But it is hard for the little boy to
learn to like being whipped, and we are all children, Doll, to the end
of our days.”
“Yes.”
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