"Left me, Court! She sailed at daybreak for Italy with another man."
Tennelly fumbled in his pocket and brought out a crumpled note,
blistered with tears. "Read it!" he muttered, and turned away to the
window.
Courtland read:
DEAR LEW,--I'm sure when you come to your senses
and get over some of your narrow ideas you'll be as much
relieved as I am over what I've decided to do. You and I
never were fitted for each other, and I can't stand this
life another day. I'm simply perishing! It's up to me to do
something, for I know, with your strait-laced notions, you
never will! So when you read this I shall be out of reach,
on my way to Italy with Count von Bremen. They say there's
going to be war in this country, anyway, and I hate such
things, so I had to get out of it. You won't have any
trouble in getting a divorce, and you'll soon be glad I did
it.
As for the kid, if she lives she's much better off with you
than with me, for you know I never could stand children;
they get on my nerves. And, anyhow, I never could be all the
things you tried to make me, and it's better in the end this
way. So good-by, and don't try to come after me. I won't
come back, no matter what you do, for I'm bored to death
with the last two years and I've got to see some life!
GILA
Courtland read the flippant little note twice before he trusted himself
to speak, and then he walked over to the window, slowly smoothing and
folding the crumpled paper. A baby's cry in the next room pierced the
air, and the father gripped the window-seat and quivered as if a bullet
had struck him.
Courtland put his hand lovingly within his friend's arm: "Nelly, old
fellow," he said, "you know that I feel with you--"
"I know, Court!" with a weary sigh. "That's why I sent for you. I had to
have you, somehow!"
"Nelly! There aren't any words made delicate enough to handle this thing
without hurting. It's raw flesh and full of nerves. There's just One
can do anything here! I wish you believed in God!"
"I do!" said Tennelly, in a dreary tone.
"He can come near you and give you strength to bear it. I know, for He
did it for me once!"
Courtland felt as if his words were falling on deaf ears, but Tennelly,
after a pause, asked, bitterly:
"Why did He do this to me, if He's what you say He is?"
"I'm not sure that He did, old man! I think perhaps you and I had a hand
in it!"
Tennelly looked at him keenly for an instant and turned away, silent. "I
know what you mean," he said. "You told me I'd go through hell, and I
have. I knew it in a way myself, but I'm afraid I'd do it again! I loved
her! God! I'm afraid--I _love her yet_! Man! You don't know what an ache
such love is."
"Yes, I do," said Courtland, with a sudden light in his face, but
Tennelly was not heeding him.
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