British -- India -- Fiction; India -- Social life and customs -- Fiction
And mechanically, too, he walked up the street, noticing nothing, not
heeding the loitering figures that got in his way, that muttered abuse
as he moved them aside, till he came to the corner where, years ago as
it seemed to him now, his path had been blocked by the camel caravan. As
by instinct, he turned into the principal thoroughfare, passing in time
by the house of rejoicing. It was quieter now, the crowd had dispersed,
the lights in the pans had begun to burn low, and only a faint sound of
singing and music came from within the building. With quick, regular
tramp he continued his way through the stifling city, meeting again the
odour of badly cured hides that drifted across from the place of the
workers in leather; on through the hot, still streets that led to the
squalid mud suburb outside, and thence to the broad, empty road where
his steps sank soundless into the heavy dust.
He was barely conscious of physical being. All the time, as he walked
automatically through the bazaars, mid the heat and the smells, his
thoughts had been chained to the past. Trixie might not have
existed--her puzzling absence, his quest, his doubts and his
apprehensions had gone from his mind. He was living once more in those
far-away days that had begun with such happiness, only to end in such
failure and pain; they had seemed to him over and dead, as leaves torn
out of his volume of life and destroyed, and now a result had arisen,
alive and awful and tragic--the woman in the bazaar! Was it a dire
pre-warning, those words that had haunted his dreams and his mind in the
jungle, that had harassed him in the train, followed him up to the door
of his house?
Memory tortured his soul, sparing him nothing. Again he found himself
riding along in a country lane on a summer morning in England; he saw
the vicarage garden, the tangle of blossoming shrubs, the ragged riot of
flowers, and visioned a slender figure in blue crossing the unkempt
lawn, with hair glinting gold in the sunshine. A clear young voice was
trilling a verse of an old, familiar hymn:
"Other refuge have I none;
Hangs my helpless soul on Thee;
Leave, ah! leave me not alone,
Still support and comfort me."
He went through it all in hopeless, despairing surrender--the simple
wedding in the village church, the period of placid happiness, and then
the doubt, the jealousy, the torment of suspicion, culminating in that
dreadful night--the night of the ball. It returned to him now with cruel
distinctness; he could see Rafella running to the door, her white arms
lifted as she struggled with the bolt; he heard her fleeing from him
through the compound....
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