For once Lord Holme showed a certain adroitness. Instead of replying to
his wife he retorted:
“You meant me to find Ulford here! That’s a good ‘un! Why, you tried all
you knew to keep him out.”
“Yes.”
“Well, then?”
“I wanted--but you’d never understand.”
“He does,” said Lord Holme.
He laughed again, got up and walked about the room, fingering his
bandages. Then suddenly, he turned on Lady Holme and said savagely:
“And you do.”
“I?”
“Yes, you. There’s lots of fellers that would--”
“Stop!” said Lady Holme, in a voice of sharp decision.
She got up too. She felt that she could not say what she meant to say
sitting down.
“Fritz,” she added, “you’re a fool. You may be worse. I believe you
are. But one thing’s certain--you’re a fool. Even in wickedness you’re a
blunderer.”
“And what are you?” he said.
“I!” she answered, coming a step nearer. “I’m not wicked.”
A sudden, strange desire came to her, a desire--as she had slangily
expressed it to Robin Pierce--to “trot out” the white angel whom she had
for so long ignored or even brow-beaten. Was the white angel there? Some
there were who believed so. Robin Pierce, Sir Donald, perhaps others.
And these few believers gave Lady Holme courage. She remembered them,
she relied on them at this moment.
“I’m not wicked,” she repeated.
She looked into her husband’s face.
“Don’t you know that?”
He was silent.
“Perhaps you’d rather I was,” she continued. “Don’t men prefer it?”
He stared first at her, then at the carpet. A puzzled look came into his
face.
“But I don’t care,” she said, gathering resolution, and secretly
calling, calling on the hidden woman, yet always with a doubt as to
whether she was there in her place of concealment. “I don’t care. I
can’t change my nature because of that. And surely--surely there must be
some men who prefer refinement to vulgarity, purity to--”
“Ulford, eh?” he interrupted.
The retort struck like a whip on Lady Holme’s temper. She forgot the
believers in the angel and the angel too.
“How dare you?” she exclaimed. “As if I--”
He took up the latch-key and thrust it into her face. His sense of
physical triumph was obviously dying away, his sense of personal outrage
returning.
“Good women don’t do things like that,” he said. “If it was known in
London you’d be done for.”
“And you--may you do what you like openly, brazenly?”
“Men’s different,” he said.
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