“Many women are not egoists. But you have been dining with one of the
most finished egoists in London to-night.”
“Lady Holme?” said Sir Donald, shifting into the left-hand corner of the
sofa.
“Yes, Viola Holme, once Lady Viola Grantoun; whom I mustn’t know any
more.”
“I’m not sure that you are right, Carey,” said Pierce, rather coldly.
“What!”
“Can a true and perfect egoist be in love?”
“Certainly. Is not even an egoist an animal?”
Pierce’s lips tightened for a second, and his right hand strained itself
round his knee, on which it was lying.
“And how much can she be in love?”
“Very much.”
“Do you mean with her body?”
“Yes, I do; and with the spirit that lives in it. I don’t believe
there’s any life but this. A church is more fantastic to me than the
room in which Punch belabours Judy. But I say that there is spirit in
lust, in hunger, in everything. When I want a drink my spirit wants it.
Viola Holme’s spirit--a flame that will be blown out at death--takes
part in her love for that great brute Holme. And yet she’s one of the
most pronounced egoists in London.”
“Do you care to tell us any reason you may have for saying so?” said Sir
Donald.
As he spoke, his voice, brought into sharp contrast with the changeful
and animated voice of Carey, sounded almost preposterously thin and worn
out.
“She is always conscious of herself in every situation, in every
relation of life. While she loves even she thinks to herself, ‘How
beautifully I am loving!’ And she never forgets for a single moment
that she is a fascinating woman. If she were being murdered she would be
saying silently, while the knife went in, ‘What an attractive creature,
what an unreplaceable personage they are putting an end to!’”
“Rupert, you are really too absurd!” exclaimed Pierce, laughing
reluctantly.
“I’m not absurd. I see straight. Lady Holme is an egoist--a magnificent,
an adorable egoist, fine enough in her brilliant selfishness to stand
quite alone.”
“And you mean to tell us that any woman can do that?” exclaimed Pierce.
“Who am I that I should pronounce a verdict upon the great mystery? What
do I know of women?”
“Far too much, I’m afraid,” said Pierce.
“Nothing, I have never been married, and only the married man knows
anything of women. The Frenchmen are wrong. It is not the mistress who
informs, it is the loving wife. For me the sex remains mysterious, like
the heroine of my realm of dreams.”
“You are talking great nonsense, Rupert.”
“I always do when I am depressed, and I am very specially depressed
to-night.”
“But why? There must be some very special reason.”
“There is. I, too, dined out and met at dinner a young man whose one
desire in life appears to be to deprive living creatures of life.”
Sir Donald moved slightly.
“You’re not a sportsman, then, Mr. Carey?” he said.
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