“Oh,” she cried, wringing her hands.
The mere suspicion crushed her. I lacked fine feeling enough to give
her comfort then and restore her self-respect, and so I assumed a
fatherly air and lectured her for her foolish exaggeration of trifles.
“But my dear,” I said, “it is not so dreadful. What crime has that
tactless Ducal committed?”
I thought the word “tactless” strong enough to designate his insult.
She did not answer.
“He--he dared--to tell me--”
“What?” I asked impatiently. “Oh, yes, I can imagine--but what did he
say to you?”
“I do not know. He was talking generalities. I did not see where he
wished to arrive. He said that one is so rarely happy, and that one can
not be so if one is not loved.”
The miserable wretch had artfully tried to explain her own state of
mind to her before offering his sympathy. I have no doubt the knowledge
that he perceived her secret suffering was as painful to her as the
unmerited insult. Later, at least, I could understand that. My only
aim then was to minimise the effect of an incident which I thought so
little compromising.
“Oh, come,” I said, in an easy manner, “it’s not worth being annoyed
about. Pierre Ducal only acted like a man of the world, and very badly,
since he put you in such a state. Would it not have sufficed to let him
know that you realised his stupidity? He is a man of intelligence, and
he would not have begun again. He is good company; one is never bored
with him. Paris is not the Sleeping Woods. You seem to forget that.
Life here is highly organised and civilised. You try to live in the
city as you do in the solitude of the country. One can’t do that. You
must learn to adapt yourself. Besides, a young woman has a thousand
ways of protecting herself without struggling or screaming. All women
know the art of listening graciously. One has not the air of listening.
One jokes, one smiles, or one laughs frankly. One checks the indiscreet
man with a word, a blow of the fan on the fingers. Men hardly ever
insist. They do not carry on a hopeless siege, above all to-day, when
one is so practical and so hurried. Deuce take it! One does not throw
men out of the door, who, after all, do not wish you any harm. Whom
would one receive, if one adopted such a system? I assure you, it is
time you began to mature.”
I was very proud of this improvised argument. It might have availed
with women who do not fear to play with fire, or enjoy a flirtation
if they know they are temptation-proof. It might not have jarred the
finer sensibilities of that type of woman who enjoys a joke about such
things with her intimates, as one is amused by a toy pistol that only
looks real but is not really dangerous. To Raymonde it was absolutely
unintelligible. Every word was a fresh wound, every thought disloyal
and wicked.
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