*“O how sweet was Jesus to my soul. The _rose_ for sweetness; the _lilly_ for whiteness; the _apple-tree_ for fruitfulness; what are they all to thee! Entering into my closet, the moment I bowed my knee, the Lord poured down a blessing into my soul. O what a heaven upon earth did I experience for some moments! Tongue cannot express the goodness of God to my soul. O where shall I find words to praise? How am I lost in the ocean, of the immensity of thy mercy! Lord, I know not how to give thee thanks. Where to begin, I cannot tell. O my soul, fall into silent amazement! Let all I have, or am, drop into nothing!” “_March, Friday 8._ This was a day of much temptation; but God, for my support and confirmation, was pleased to give me fresh manifestations of his love.” “Reading and prayer to day, were of little comfort to me. If it were not that I find the abiding witness of the Spirit in my soul, my bondage would be very great. It is the goodness of God which preserves me in the faith. The enemies of my salvation are thrusting sore at me from day to day. Defend, and keep me, O my God, for Jesu’s sake.” “In prayer, I saw the great difficulty of being a Christian in reality. There are many who _eat their own bread, and wear their own apparel_, and are willing to _be called by_ the name of Jesus, to take away their reproach――The abomination of being called Heathens. But they love notwithstanding, the ways of death, and darkness, rather than light; and do what Heathens would not do. The ninety-first psalm was made a great blessing to me, the ninth verse especially.” “This morning the Lord gave me language that I knew not of, raising my soul to him, in a wonderful manner. After preaching however in the evening, at my return to my room, I felt little life in my soul, but a Spirit of slothfulness. O what a poor creature! How incapable of thinking a good thought, or doing a truly good action! Sinful dust and ashes.” _Friday 22._ In the morning I had an earnest desire to be dissolved, and to be with Christ. I wanted to see Jesus, who bore and suffered so much for _me_.” “The 25th, my soul was very dull. I had a desire to pray, but could not, through the deadness of my heart, and wandering of my thoughts. This is a thing I have to complain of in general; namely, wandering in prayer, want of earnestness and fervour.” “The 29th, I cannot say, that till three o’clock I had true communion with God. But then, the Lord clearly manifested himself to me.” “_1751. April 6._ I had not much of the presence of God, nor of the comfort of the Holy Ghost, yet my heart and my flesh cry out for the living God!”