The works of the Rev. John Wesley, Vol. 12 (of 32)Wesley, John
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The works of the Rev. John Wesley, Vol. 12 (of 32)
Wesley, John
Methodist Church; Theology -- Early works to 1800; Theology -- History -- 18th century
I continued in this state of mind from Friday morning till the
sabbath-evening following, July 12, 1739, when I was walking again in
the same solitary place, and attempting to pray, but found no heart
to engage in that or any other duty. Having been thus endeavouring to
pray for near half an hour, (and by this time the sun was about half an
hour high) as I was walking in a dark thick grove, _unspeakable glory_
opened to the view of my soul: I do not mean any external brightness,
but a new inward apprehension or view that I had of God, such as I
never had before. I stood still and admired! I had never seen before
any thing comparable to it for excellency and beauty; it was widely
different from all the conceptions that ever I had of God, or things
divine. I had no particular apprehension of any one person in the
Trinity, either the Father, the Son, or the Holy Ghost; but it appeared
to be _divine glory_ that I then beheld; and my soul _♦rejoiced with
joy unspeakable_, to see such a God, such a glorious divine being; and
I was inwardly pleased and satisfied, that he should be God over all
for ever and ever. My soul was so captivated and delighted with the
excellency, loveliness, greatness, and other perfections of God, that
I was even swallowed up in him, so that at _first_, I scarce reflected
there was such a creature as myself.
♦ “rerejoiced” replaced with “rejoiced”
Thus God, brought me to a hearty disposition to _exalt him_, and to aim
at his glory, as King of the universe.
I continued in this state till near dark, without any sensible
abatement; and then began to think what I had seen; and was sweetly
composed all the evening following. I felt myself in a new world, and
every thing about me appeared with a different aspect from what it was
wont to do.
*At this time the _way of salvation_ opened to me with such infinite
wisdom and excellency, that I wondered I should ever think of any
other way of salvation; was amazed, that I had not dropped my own
contrivances, and complied with this excellent way before. If I could
have been saved by my own duties, or any other way that I had formerly
contrived, my whole soul would now have refused. I wondered, that the
whole world did not see and comply with this way of salvation, entirely
by the _merits of Christ_.
The sweet relish of what I then felt, continued with me for several
days, in a greater or less degree; I could not but sweetly rejoice
in God, lying down or rising up. The next Lord’s day I felt something
of the same kind, though not so powerful. But not long after, was
again under great distress; yet not of the same kind with my distress
under convictions. I was afraid and ashamed to come before God; was
exceedingly pressed with a sense of guilt: but it was not long before
I felt true repentance and joy in God.
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