The World's Illusion, Volume 1 (of 2): EvaWassermann, Jakob
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The World's Illusion, Volume 1 (of 2): Eva
Wassermann, Jakob
German fiction -- Translations into English
“One morning the boys locked the door of their room and refused
to come to their instruction. While I shook the knob they mocked
me from within. In the halls the servants stood and laughed at my
powerlessness. I went to the gardener, borrowed an axe, and crashed
through the door with three blows. A minute later I was in the room.
The boys looked at me in consternation, and realized at last that I
would not endure their insolence. The noise had brought Frau Ribbeck
to the scene. She looked at the broken door and then at me. I shall
never forget that look. She did not turn her eyes from me even while
she was speaking to the children, and that was at least ten minutes.
Her eyes asked: How dare you? Who are you? When she went out, she saw
the axe near the door and stopped a moment, and I saw her shiver. But I
knew that the direction of the wind had changed. Also it came into my
consciousness that a human woman had stood before me.
“The teasing of my pupils was by no means at an end. On the contrary,
they annoyed me as much as possible. But they did it secretively
now, and the blame was hard to fix. I found pebbles and needles in
my bed, ink spilled over my books, a horrible rent in the best suit
of clothes I had. They jeered at me before others, lied about me to
their mother, and exchanged glances of shameless insolence when I held
them responsible. What they did was not like the ordinary mischief of
silly boys. They had been sophisticated by luxury. They were afraid
of a draught, had the rooms so overheated that one grew faint, and
thought of nothing but physical comforts. Once they fought, and the
younger bit the older’s finger. The boy went to bed for three days, and
insisted that a physician be called. Nor was this merely a case of lazy
malingering; bottomless malevolence and vengefulness entered into it.
They considered me as far beneath them, and lost no chance to make me
feel my dependent position. My mood was often bitter, but I determined
to practise patience.
“One evening I entered the drawing-room. The hour which I had set as
the boys’ bed-time was past. Frau Ribbeck sat on the carpet, the boys
snuggled on either side of her. She was showing them the pictures in
a book. Her hair hung loose,--an unfitting thing, I thought--and its
reddish splendour covered her as well as the boys like a mantle of
brocade. The boys fixed green and evil eyes upon me. I ordered them to
bed at once. There must have been something in my tone that frightened
them and forced them to obey. Without contradiction they got up and
retired.
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