The World's Illusion, Volume 2 (of 2): RuthWassermann, Jakob
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The World's Illusion, Volume 2 (of 2): Ruth
Wassermann, Jakob
German fiction -- Translations into English
“Finally I was discharged from my office of district physician. I
appealed to the National Medical Association, which in its turn
appealed to the highest authorities. The town council and the sanitary
commission were both dissolved by the governor of the province, the
mayor was removed from office, my own dismissal revoked, and an escort
of gendarmes despatched to the town to protect me and mine from
violence. The trouble was that my situation was as bad as ever. The
government could protect me from bodily hurt, but it could neither give
me back my practice nor force my old patients to pay what they owed
me. I was ruined. In the course of five months I brought twenty-one
suits of slander and won every case. But I was more discouraged each
time. It became clear that I could not stay at Riedberg. But where
was I to go--a country doctor without private means, with a wife and
children and, a feeble, aged mother to support? How was I to silence
the slanderers, wash off the stain, and heal the inner hurt? I had no
friend there who could lend me support; from the consolations of my
wife there came to me only the voice of her own despair.
“I broke down completely. For eleven months I lay in a hospital. With
unexampled energy my wife was busy during this period founding a new
home for us and finding a new field of activity for me. I received
permission to practise in Germany, and began life anew. Although I had
lost faith both in my own powers and in mankind, my soul gradually
grew calm again. Our circumstances are the most modest; but in this
great city it is possible to be alone and to prevent the interference
of strangers. For a long time I could practise my profession only if I
forgot that my patients were human. I had to regard them as mechanisms
that were to be repaired. Their pain and sorrow I passed over, and I
hated to notice either. Do you understand that? Do you understand my
coldness and contempt?”
“After all your experiences I can well understand it,” Christian
answered. “But I believe your standpoint is no longer the same. Am I
right? It seems to me that a change has taken place in you.”
“Yes, a change has taken place,” Dr. Voltolini admitted. “And it
began----” He stopped and cast an unobtrusive glance at his companion.
After a pause he said timidly: “Why did you smile that day when the
Schirmacher girl showed you her ring? Do you remember? You may, of
course, reply: it was natural to smile, for the stone which delighted
her so was quite worthless, and yet to disillusion her would have been
cruel. And yet your smile didn’t express that. It expressed something
else.”
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