Americans -- England -- Fiction; Diary fiction; World War, 1914-1918 -- England -- Fiction
The mother is a north-country woman, with a touch of Scotch about her,
clean and sweet, though a bit dusty with the long road. Of course I
take her in for the night; we have a wee guest-chamber. Don and the
kitten and I try to make friends with the baby, but it merely howls.
Madge wanted to keep the travellers in the kitchen, but I would not
permit this and said that my soldier's wife must dine with me. I forgot
to say, I took it for granted that Madge would know enough to lay
another cover at table and was not prepared to see the stranger in your
place. Naturally, though I winced, I could not make any change, and
there she sat, a bit awed; probably she would have been happier in the
kitchen with the baby; but she brightened up and told me some of the
border legends, when she found that I already knew some. My desire to
take her out of your chair lasted through the soup and half-way through
the modest roast; when we reached the salad, there was a hurt sense
somewhere within me that it was right. I had become a Christian by the
time the dessert came on, and in the afterglow by the fire, while she
sang her baby to sleep most enchantingly with an old north-country
song, I resolved to do just this: keep your chair for wandering guests,
fugitives from these highways and hedges. Your intense present life
with me, your subtle nearness needs, after all, no help from outer
object or material thing. Alas for my blockade!... Forts are proving
useless, the war news says.
It sets me to thinking, and I sit by the fire long after my guests have
gone to sleep. After all, it seems a pity to work so hard over a house
and to get it ready, unless you get it ready for something. I don't
know how it could be managed in a maiden lady's home, but what if I
resolved that all the things that should happen in a house should
happen here? In my heart of hearts I know, in spite of this blinding
sorrow, that I do not want to be shut off from the main streams of
human life. They used to tell me that I have a genius for home; suppose
I establish this as a wee home in a warring universe for the use of
whomsoever? Not a Home with a large H, but a little home, with a dog
and a cat and a singing teakettle. The Lord did not make me for great
causes,--not for a philanthropist, nor a leader of men, nor a
suffragette. I have no understanding of masses of mankind, and so am
lost in this era, and hopelessly behind the times. Life seems to me, as
it did to my grandfather, primarily as the conscientious fulfilment of
individual obligation, which inevitably reaches out to other lives. The
troubles of individual men and women and children I used to understand,
to try to help; perhaps I can again. Though it means confessing that I
belong to a type of woman rapidly becoming extinct, all my life long I
have felt that I should be content with a hearthstone and threshold of
my own, with natural relationships and real neighbours. If I can
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