The yellow book, an illustrated quarterly. Vol. 1, April 1894
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The yellow book, an illustrated quarterly. Vol. 1, April 1894
English literature -- 19th century -- Periodicals; Great Britain -- Periodicals; Literature, Modern -- 19th century -- Periodicals
_Lucy._ Yes, very--perhaps I should say I want to see you often.
_Harold._ And so do I you, but I can't be in two places at once. This is
what I mean when I say you are unreasonable. I must go out. If I am to
write, I must study people, character, scenes. I can't do that by
stopping at home: I can't do that by coming here; I know you and I know
your landlady, and there is nobody else in the house, except the slavey
and the cat; and although the slavey may be a very excellent servant and
the cat a most original quadruped, still, I don't want to make elaborate
studies of animals--either four-legged or two. One would imagine, from
the way you talk, that I did nothing except enjoy myself. I only go out
in the evenings.
_Lucy._ Still you might spare a little time, now and then, to come and
see me, if only for half an hour.
_Harold._ What am I doing now? I gave up a dinner-party to come here
to-night.
_Lucy._ Do you know it is exactly a month yesterday since you were here
last?
_Harold._ I can't be always dangling at your apron-strings.
_Lucy._ Harold!
_Harold._ If we are going to be married, we----
_Lucy._ If?
_Harold._ Well, when, if you like it better; we shall see enough of one
another then. I have written to you, it isn't as though I hadn't done
that.
_Lucy._ But that is not the same thing as seeing you; and your letters,
too, have been so scrappy. [Harold _throws himself into the arm-chair_.]
They used to be so different before your book came out.
_Harold._ I had more time then.
_Lucy._ I sometimes wish that it had never been published at all, that
you had never written it, or, at all events, that it had never been such
a success.
_Harold._ That's kind, at all events--deuced kind and considerate!
_Lucy._ It seems to have come between us as a barrier. When I think how
eagerly we looked forward to its appearance, what castles in the air we
built as to how happy we were going to be, and all the things we were
going to do, if it were a success, and now to think that----
_Harold._ [_Jumps up._] Look here, Lucy, I'm damned if--I can't stand
this much longer! Nag, nag, nag! I can't stand it. I am worked off my
head during the day, I am out half the night, and when I come here for a
little quiet, a little rest, its--[_Breaks off suddenly_].
_Lucy._ I am so sorry. If I had thought----
_Harold._ Can't you see that you are driving me mad? I have been here
half an hour, and the whole of the time it has been nothing but
reproaches.
_Lucy._ I don't think they would have affected you so much if you hadn't
felt that you deserved them!
_Harold._ There you go again! I deserve them--[_laughs harshly_]. It is
my fault, I suppose, that it is the season; it is my fault that people
give dinner-parties and balls; it is my fault, I suppose, that you don't
go out as much as I do?
_Lucy._ Certainly not; although, as a matter of fact, I haven't been out
one single evening for the last three--nearly four--months.
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