The yellow book, an illustrated quarterly. Vol. 3, October, 1894
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The yellow book, an illustrated quarterly. Vol. 3, October, 1894
English literature -- 19th century -- Periodicals; Great Britain -- Periodicals; Literature, Modern -- 19th century -- Periodicals
“It was very kind of you to come all this way, Ethel, to see me. Will
you stay a little and let me talk to you? It’s more than five years
since we’ve talked together, you know,” and he smiled faintly. “Don’t
cry so, Ethel, dear. I did not mean to make you cry. There’s no cause
to cry, dear; you’ve made me so happy.”
“My poor, poor Alec,” she sobbed.
“You’d almost forgotten the old days, perhaps,” he continued dreamily,
talking half to himself; “for it’s a long while ago now. But to me it
seems as if it had all just happened. You see I’ve been vegetating
rather, here in this lonely, little place.... Don’t go on crying, Ethel
dear ... let me tell you about things a little. There’s no harm in it
now, because you know I’m----”
“Oh! don’t--don’t say that. You’ll get better. I know you will.”
“No, Ethel, I sha’n’t. Something within me tells me that my course
is done. Besides, I don’t want to get better. I’m so happy.... Stay
a little with me, Ethel.... I wanted to explain.... I was stupid,
selfish, in the old days----”
“It was I--I who----” she protested through her tears.
“No, you were quite right to write me that letter. I’ve thought that
almost from the first.... I’m sure of it,” he added, as if convincing
himself definitely. “It could never be ... it was my fault.... I
was stupid and boorish and wrapped up in myself. I did not try to
understand your nature.... I didn’t understand anything about women....
I never had a sister.... I took for granted that you were always
thinking and feeling just as I was. I never tried to understand you,
Ethel.... I was not fit to be entrusted with you.”
“Alec, Alec, it is not true. You were too good, too noble-hearted.
I felt you were far above me. Beside you I felt I was silly and
frivolous. Your standards about everything seemed so high----”
But he interrupted, unheeding her:
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