Jews -- Fiction; Man-woman relationships -- Fiction; New York (N.Y.) -- Fiction
THE sluggishness, the dull, dead-and-alive feeling, of which Elias had
complained to his uncle, seemed to be tightening its hold upon him. From
morning to-night, each day, he went about in a state of profound apathy.
His customary occupations had lost their power to interest him. His
painting he pursued listlessly, getting no pleasure from it, and
producing wretched stuff. He would sit at his studio window for hours at
a stretch, moping; trying to think of something to do that would cause
him a little sensation; wondering what the matter with himself could be;
pitying himself from the bottom of his heart. He craved excitement as
the toper craves his grog. But there were grog-shops on every corner;
he knew of no excitement-shop. The entire emotional side of his nature
appeared to have become congealed and unsusceptible. Even his five
bodily senses had lost their edge. His food, unless he deluged it with
salt and pepper, was vapid, flavorless. The cold water with which he
bathed in the morning, felt lukewarm to his skin. Whatsoever his eye
looked upon, straightway forfeited all its beauty, all its
suggestiveness. He fancied he would enjoy a horse-whipping. It would
stir him up, and start his blood to circulating. Already his memory of
Christine had begun to grow dim and shadowy, like the memory of a person
known only in a dream. His whole acquaintance with her, from first to
last, as he reviewed it, seemed unreal and dream-like. As a matter of
curiosity, he tried now and then to call up her face and figure; with
none but the vaguest, meagerest results. She had gone quite out of his
life, and was fading rapidly quite out of his thought. When Sunday came,
and the rabbi reminded him of their engagement to dine at the Kochs', he
experienced something almost like a distinct and positive pleasure.
These people, at least, with their high-pitched voices and peculiar
manners, would afford him a small measure of amusement. He hoped Miss
Tillie would be there. Her aggressive crudity, which, a few weeks ago,
would have cut him like a knife, would now simply have the effect of an
agreeable irritant.
His hope in this respect was not disappointed. The dinner party
consisted of precisely the same lot of people whom he had met the other
evening, without an addition or a subtraction. When he and the
rabbi arrived, they were all assembled in the parlor, forming the
circumference of a circle, of which Lester, sprawling upon the carpet,
and smiling a smile of beatific inanition, was the center. They were in
ecstasies of admiration, which, evidently, they expected the new-comers
to share. It was a monstrously fat baby, without any features to speak
of; and it had a horrid red eruption all over one side of its face. Yet,
very gravely, Mr. Koch asked, “Isn't that the handsomest baby you ever
saw, Mr. Bacharach? Wouldn't you like to paint his portrait?” And Elias
felt constrained to reply that it was, and that he would.
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