Boarding schools -- Fiction; England -- Fiction; Medical students -- Fiction
“Why do you do this?” Edwin asked, and when he had recovered from the
shyness and diffidence into which the question had cast him, the boy told
him that he wrote his verses because he couldn’t help it, because the
words became an obsession to him and would not let him sleep until they
were written down. The thin flame of creative aspiration showed itself
in other ways, in the patient’s vivid delight in colours and sounds, and
in the strange pictures, having no relation to nature, that he drew with
coloured chalks.
It seemed to Edwin that in this case the exhaustion of chronic disease
had revealed the existence, as it sometimes will, of a faint fire of
natural genius. “There, but for the spite of heaven,” he thought, “goes
John Keats,” and, with the feelings of an experimenter in explosives who
mixes strange reagents, he lent his patient a copy of the poet’s works.
The boy fell on them eagerly. He confessed that he did not understand
them; but he would read them all day, mispronouncing the words as the
classical student perhaps mispronounces those of the Greek poets, but
extracting from their sonorous beauty a curious and vivid sensual
satisfaction. A single line would sometimes throw him into a kind of
trance, and he would lean back in his bed with the book open on his chest
and his slender clubbed fingers clasped above it, repeating to himself
his own version of the words without any conception of their real
meaning. Sometimes a line would fill him with memories:—
“Deep in the shady sadness of a vale
Far sunken from the healthy breath of morn,
Far from the fiery moon, and eve’s one star . . .”
“That is like our home,” he would say.
The house-physician did not approve of these experiments. On principle
he would have disapproved of poetry, and in this case he considered the
reading of it unhealthy. As if there were any element of health in this
misfortune! . . . A few weeks later the patient had an attack of
hæmoptysis and died.
It was only in such cases of chronic illness that the question of the
patient’s intellectual state arose. Such speculations might mitigate the
fatigue of slow siege warfare that had only one end in view, but the
acute medical wards, and particularly those devoted to acute pneumonia,
were the scene of shorter and more desperate conflicts, grapplings with
death, in which the issue was doubtful and medicine could at least give
support, and sometimes turn the tide.
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