Sadly, sternly, with the passing of the year, he admitted to himself
that he had failed. Humiliated and ashamed, with the coming of the new
year, he admitted that he must begin again. Bitterly he called himself
a fool. And perhaps he was--more or less. Most men are a little
foolish. The man who has never been forced to swallow his own folly
has missed a bitter but wholesome tonic that, more than likely, he
needs. This man was not the kind of a man who would blame any one but
himself for his failure. If he had been that particular kind of a fool
his failure would have been of little value either to him or to any
one. Neither would there be, for me, a story.
I do not know the particulars of this man's failure--neither the what,
the why, nor the how. I know only that he failed--that it was
necessary for him to fail. Nor is this a story of such particulars for
they are of little importance. A man can fail in anything. Some, even,
seem to fail in everything. This, therefore, is my story: that as
Failure enters into the life of every man it came into the life of
this man. In some guise or other Failure seems to be a necessity. It
is one of the Thirteen Truly Great Things of Life. But the man did
not, at that time, understand that his failure was a necessity.
_That_ understanding came to him only with Success.
You may say that this man was too young to accomplish a real Failure.
But you need not bother about that, either. One is never too young to
experience Failure. And Failure, to the one who fails, is always, at
the time, very real.
So this man saw the castles that he had toiled so hard to build come
tumbling down about him. So he was awakened from his bright dreams to
find that they were only dreams. So he came to see his work as
idleness and folly. Sorrowfully he looked at the ruin of his building.
Hopelessly he recalled his dreams. Despairingly he looked upon his
fruitless labor. With his fine manhood's strength dead within him, he
bitterly felt himself to be but a weakling; fit only to be pushed
aside by the stronger, better, men among whom he went, now, with
lifeless step and downcast face. There was left in his heart no
courage and no hope. He saw himself a most miserable coward, and,
ashamed and disgraced in his own sight, he shrank from the eyes of his
fellows and withdrew into himself to hide.
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