There was no woman in the dreams of the man who that afternoon, for
the first time, realized his manhood and began his manhood life. He
dreamed only of the deeds that he would do; of the work he would
accomplish; of the place he would win; and of the honors he would
receive. The little girl lived for him only in his Yesterdays. She did
not belong to his manhood years. She had no place in his manhood
dreams.
Slowly he climbed the rail fence again and, through the orchard, went
down the hill toward the house. But he did not again enter the house.
He went on past the kitchen porch to the garden gate where he stood,
for some minutes, looking toward the hedge that separated the two
places and toward the cherry tree that grew in the corner of the
garden next door.
At the big front gate he paused again and turned lingeringly as one
reluctant to go. The old home in the twilight seemed so lonely, so
deserted by all to whom it had been most kind.
At last, with a movement suggestive of a determination that could not
have belonged to his boyhood, he set his face toward the world. Down
the little hill in the dusk of the evening he went, walking quickly;
past the house where the little girl had lived; across the creek at
the foot of the hill; and on up the easy rise beyond. And, as he went,
there was on his face the look of a man. There was in his eyes a new
light--the light of a man's dream. Nor did he once look back.
To-morrow he would leave the friends of his boyhood; he would leave
the scenes of his Yesterdays; he would go to work out his dreams--even
as in his Yesterdays, he would play them out--for the works of men are
as the plays of children but dreams in action, after all.
Would he, _could_ he, play out his manhood dreams alone?
And the woman also, for the first time, was face to face with Life
and, for the first time, knew that she was a woman.
For a long while she had seen her womanhood approaching. Little by
little, as her skirts had been lengthened, as her dolls had been put
away, as her hair had been put up, she had seen her womanhood drawing
near. But she had always said to herself: "when I do not play with
dolls, when I can dress like mother, and fix my hair like mother, I
will be a woman." She did not know, then, that womanhood is a matter
of things very different from these. Until that night she did not
know. But that night she knew.
I cannot tell you the woman's name, nor where she lived, nor any of
those things that are commonly told about women in stories. But, as my
story is not that kind of a story, it will not matter that I cannot
tell. What really matters to my story is this: the woman, that night,
when, for the first time, she knew herself to be a woman, began her
woman life in dreams. Because the dreams of life are of the greatest
importance--because Dreams are of the Thirteen Truly Great Things of
Life--this is my story: that the woman life of this woman, when first
she knew herself to be a woman, began in dreams.
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